Broken Dreams. (Eminem Fan Fiction)

Chapter Seven

I had absolutely no right so be upset.

My fans were everywhere,they dwelled in so many countries around the world.My friends were supportive,they helped with all the important decisions that I had to make during my tough career.My family helped the most.When no one else was there for me,they were.Countless concerts,callaborations and my own songs had given me enough money for a lifetime.It was almost unrealistic at this point.I had more than enough money to pay for Damen to go to school.I had more than enough money to feed me and my family members that had once struggled along with me.I didn't even have to beg for a callaboration with a popular artist.So many people had asked for my help with their songs,something I never imagined that would have happened.Years ago I had been stuck in a small,cluttered room,praying that I could be saved from the miserable lifestyle.Now I was living in a large,expensive house and travelling the world.

Yet I was curled up sadly on the bed,hot tears spilling from the corners of my eyes.Weakness was evident as I sobbed to myself and sipped slowly from the bottle of alcohol.I wasn't crying only because of the unexpected stress that had suddenly been dropped onto my soulders,I was crying because I had gone through incidents that so many other people in the world didn't have to go through.Almost every song of mine explained my previous lifestyle,the one where I had sleepless nights dreaming of a good job and enough food to eat.So many details had been left out,so many were still in my mind,begging to be released into a song just like every other aspect of my life.But some things were meant to be kept to myself.I couldn't utter a word about some of my biggest worries.Just thinking of them made me weak.

I sniffed loudly and wiped furiously at my face,leaving a red,blotchy path on my cheeks from the burning tears.I lazily rose from the bed and made my way towards the front of the bedroom to switch off the bright lights.In the darkness I returned to my bed and once again,covered my body with the warm,protective blankets.I blankly stared at the cieling for several minutes,before drifting nto a restless slumber.The alcohol had finally shut down my brain.

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Thr following morning I awoke the same way I had gone to sleep,sad and weary.Silently I ate breakfast alone in the lonely house.When I was full I pushed the plate into the sink and slipped on my coat before exiting the house.It was early in the morning,the air still cold and affecting the bare flesh on my face.I burried my hands deep in the pockets of my coat and walked for minutes,thankful that not many peple were roaming the silent streets as the same time as I was.I was taking a risk by walking alone.The thought of telling someone where I was heading before I left the house alone didn't even cross my mind.So many thoughts bombarded my mind,the minor detail of contacting someone didn't even seem that important.

My shoes glided across the wet,green grass and I sat on the bench of the empty park,removing the hood of my jacket from my head.I stayed silent,unsure what to do now that I had finally reached my destination.It would be odd if I suddenly decided to jog along the grey,narrow path circulating the park.But what if I just went for a stroll through the tall trees?Boredom was taking over,but I feared returning to my house and having unpleasant memories flood my mind again.Maybe I should have just le-

"How come you're here so early?"A manly voice asked,making me jump in shock.

Out of curiosity my head turned instantly to the person behind me,and then my body froze.Even under the hood of the dark jacket I could recognise those gorgeous,blue eyes and the pink lips of such a handsome man.His large hands were tucked into the pockets of his grey sweatpants and my eyes couldn't help but gaze at the rebellious tattooes adorning the parts of his arms that weren't covered by his jacket.

"Just uh..clearing my mind"I replied,my lips lifting into a polite smile as I stared at my idol,standing before me casually.

"Didn't think that a celebrity like you would enjoy sitting in a lonely park by herself"He chuckled,wrapping his palms around the edge of the bench.

Breathe.Breathe.Breathe!

What to say now? "You shouldn't be talking.What's a celebrity like you doing walking around by himself?"

The ends of his lips curled into a small smile,making my heart skip a beat."Just uh..clearing my mind"He mocked my words from earlier.

I found myself laughing as he smiled a little,proud that his little joke had an effect on me.On the outside I was calm and friendly,on the inside my heart was jumping and I suddenly felt a little warm despite the cold weather.

"Anyway I better get going"He said,passing his hand through his dark hair,"I guess I'll see you around at an award show or something"

He smirked playfully and I replied with a chuckle."Definitely,I'll see you around".

He gave a short wave,turned on his heel but took one last glance at me as he started to walk away.His cheeks became a rosy colour as he noticed that I had just witnessed him trying to steal a glance at me sneakily.He walked away and I smiled,still in dosbelief.But I couldn't help but wonder..what the fuck just happened?

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My mood had taken a complete turn.I skipped home happily,humming to myself and smiling like an idiot.When I finally reached my house I caught sight of Damen standing outside Derick's car.When I came into view Derick pulled off,beeping his horn as a gretting to me.I waved and ran towards Damen,wrapping my arms around his tall figure.

"I totally forgot you were coming!"I said,chuckling.

And then the happiness had turned into worrying.The smile left my face and I realised something.I had to remove the alcohol bottle from my bedroom before Damen discovered that his "now sober" sister was drinking herself to sleep.