Friends - HyungKyun

18- Changkyun

The week was slowly passing. I tried to keep Hyungwon from asking me anything about us by avoiding him. There was still no way for me to answer after only four days and it was becoming harder and harder to avoid him. Which is why I had decided to talk to Hoseok. I would have gone to Kihyun considering what it was about, but he was with Hyunwoo a lot lately. 

I had asked Hoseok early in the day if I could come over and talk to him and he accepted almost immediately. I hadn't vented to him or had a long conversation with him for a while. He probably missed it being normal. So had I. 

I sat on the couch cross-legged and turned to Hoseok, who sat at the other end in the same position. He looked happy but worried at the same time. He enjoyed the feeling of us being 100% okay, but knew whatever I needed to speak about must have been weighing on me a lot to talk.

"What's wrong Kyunie?" The older gently asked. 

"It's um-I don't know if you will want to hear this." I became nervous to talk on the subject. It hadn't even been a full week since he found out about my feelings. He may be dating Hyejin, but that doesn't mean everything. 

"I don't care what it's about. I am here for you no matter what." Hoseok leaned lower to make sure he met my eyes, that were looking down, as he spoke. 

"It's uh- it's about Hyungwon," I paused to glance at the older to see his expression that hadn't changed at all. "When you saw us on Saturday, um, like ten minutes before we-" I couldn't finish the sentence being too nervous that Hoseok wouldn't want to hear this. "Are you moved on from me?" I didn't know how else to ask without sounding insensitive.

"It doesn't exactly take one night to move on, but I'm moving on. If this has to do with you and Hyungwon starting a relationship or just the possibility or anything else, don't worry about me. Something is bothering you and it won't help to keep it in." I couldn't understand how he was always such a selfless and loving person all the time.

"If you're sure," The older nodded and motioned for me to continue talking. "Well, he kissed me and at first I was so shocked that I didn't do anything, but after he pulled away and was apologizing I kissed him. He hasn't asked more than once about what it meant, but I just told him I needed time. I can’t take forever to answer him and it’s so hard to avoid him because I don’t want to avoid him.”

“If you want to be with him, then what’s the problem?” Hoseok’s face showed confusion as he asked.

“Hoseok, he has the same name,” Hearing it come out of my mouth made it sound stupid. “I know it’s not something that he should be punished for. It’s not like he told his parents to name him Hyungwon just to mess with me, but I can’t help but connect them,” It wasn’t fair to base my whole decision on the fact that someone from my past had the same name. “Then again, at the same time, I feel this-this connection. Like we were meant to find each other?” Realizing what I said I felt instantly embarrassed. “That sounds cheesy as hell, but I don’t know how else to explain it. What if I’m wrong though? And by next week he leaves and I never see him again. All after I have already spent so much time and emotion on him.”

“I don’t believe Hyungwon would leave you. I don’t think you noticed how he was when I talked to you Saturday. It was like he was ready to attack me if I did anything to you. Can’t say he would have won, and he probably knew that, but he certainly would have tried. You didn’t see how he was calmer after you two walked away either. He was worried for you and was willing to do anything to protect you. Maybe,” Hoseok finally paused and I could see him debating whether or not to say something. “Maybe, being in a relationship with this Hyungwon will help you get over what happened with the other. If you decide to date him and I’m wrong and he leaves after a month, then you can hate me, punch me, scream at me, whatever, but I don’t think he would.”

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“Hey, Kyunie.” Hyungwon greeted me as I entered the dorm room. He was sitting at his desk which was on the opposite wall from mine.

“Hey,” setting my stuff down on the desk, I paused. I was trying to find the words to tell him, but nothing sounded right. “Hy-Hyungwon?” I turned to see if he was paying attention to me as he had already turned all the way around in his chair. His full focus was on me and no longer had the smile he greeted me with.

“Are you okay?” The taller asked.

“U-um yeah. I uh, your question…” I trailed off trying, again, to find the words.

“I don’t need any explanation. Do you want me to ask you again so you can just say yes or no?” I nodded. That would save me so much. How did he always know what to do? “Well, Changkyun, will you be my boyfriend?” My head filled so much with doubts and worries, but I remembered what Hoseok told me.

“Y-yes.” I stuttered out.

“Oka-wait! Really?” I nodded again to show I was serious. “Oh god. I really thought you were going to say no.”

“What would you have done if I had said no?” I questioned, curious.

“I probably would have acted cool with it and then later went to Minhyuk’s and cried myself to sleep, but hey! I don’t have to do that now.” His smile grew bigger and bigger as it hit him that I had agreed to be his boyfriend and so had mine. The older got off his chair and took the two steps between us. I could feel my heart rate increase even more somehow. He closed any remaining gap by wrapping his arms around me and nuzzling his face to my hair. “So, now that we are officially boyfriends, do you want to go on a date with me Saturday?"