ETHEREAL

POEMS

"The Joker & I"

I'm drawn into your volatile being.
I need your disconsolate heart.
Your desolate mind,
Incensed with anger and love.

A perfect match to mine.

I need you to
Wrap your arms around me
Until you choke me -
Because I know you will.

My biting words & phrases are the
matches aflame, and I throw them on top of
your flickering flames to light my way into

Your heart, your mind, into your nightmares & dreams.

I am your most fanatical, ideal dream.

A seducing kiss, sultry and dark
punctuated with bites; teeth piercing through skin and tissue.

Obsessed with your slow, quick saunter like a snake, and a sudden snap of your jaws over mine.

You are the brightest center of my world.
Everything is hollow; lacking without you.

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"Sending You Postcards from Jail (My Bedroom)"

Bones to bones,
Lips to lips.
You told me you imagine me with a cigarette between red lipstick tinged lips.

Nervously, I laugh, because I don't know what to say.
Your lips, they taste like alcohol, weed, cigarettes, and sugary Sour Patch Kids.

You intoxicate me.
I want to stay with you.

I come home, go to sleep, and wake up
alone.

Your words, they have sparks embedded within.
I light the match and they come
Alive.

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"The One"

I love when you have your own best interests in mind, rather than mine.
Words that spill out of your mouth, like poison -
Into the empty space between us -
things I can't believe you say!
You wish you could collect them all, and take them back.
Incredulous and sure, so sure.
Then, I come home, smelling like Dolce & Gabbana "The One," tropical fruit gum, and menthol cigarettes.
You draw me in, then cast me out,
much like I do to you.
(Let's just press fast forward and speed this up; just tear out my heart and hand it back to me on a silver platter!
It would be much easier that way.)

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"In-between"

I want to kiss you hello.
I want to kiss you good-bye.
I want to kiss you everywhere in-between.
I want to wrap myself around you -
Until you choke me.
Because I know you will.
Kiss my lips and deeper I sink into someone else.

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"The Effect of Vodka On You"

Honestly, you live up to every expectation I have of you.
As I drive you home, you tell me that you love me,
that you love me because I'm the only one who looks out for you,
but you don't want to love me.

Then, you ask if I love you.

As I drive you home, you tell me that you want me.
You tell me that you want me.
"Why don't you play games with me?"
You beg me, implore me to stay the night.
"Stay over, come over, fuck me!
I fucking love you!"
Then, you don't remember in the morning.

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"Love"

You make me melt.
Tiny broken pieces swirl together into a
great, big mass.
My heart stops and speeds up again.
Again and again, with you.
Again and again, I'm with you.
You
Make
Me.