*Lauren's POV*
I sat on the back doorsteps looking out at the pink sky. I pulled on the grass mindlessly.
I honestly don't know what to do. I feel so numb. Spending long hours alone with memories of our time together.
I know most people would say I was being a stupid teenager, and that I'm too young to know what love is. Though no one will understand what I feel for her. How my heart raced when I saw her walking down the hall. Or how the butterflies in my stomach would never calm down when we were together.
I felt so guilty knowing what happened with Ashley. I blame the alcohol, but yet again I'm the one to blame for consuming it. I hated knowing that I did something so wrong. Although I'm not completely sure if me and Camila still had something, but knowing that I was with another person other than the one I love caused me enough pain.
I felt tears build up in my eyes. I hated to cry but it was in times like these that my heart longed for her warm embrace.
I needed to hear from her, but I knew that was most likely to not happen and it only caused more tears to build.
Giving up on it seemed like the only option left.
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The next day I walked down the hall to my locker to put in my gym bag. I spotted Andrea getting closer. I felt myself tense up and anger build up. "Good morning Jauregui" she said in an annoying voice. "What do you want" I snapped. She put her hands up in defence and took a step back.
"Hey now chill. I just wanted to talk." "We have nothing to talk about." I said. She smirked. "Of course we do." She looked around me. "Where is....Camila?" She asked the smirk still plastered on her face. I just wanted to slap her badly.
"What does it matter to you? You never likes her" I asked her. She looked at me. "I might not have liked her much but I like someone else." She said raising an eyebrow and smirking wider. I felt disgusted.
"Come on Jauregui I know you had an interest I me." She came closer. God what is with all these girls climbing over me. "Key word had. Then I noticed how much of a bitch and ass you are." I responded. "Camila isn't here anymore. And I doubt she'd want you after your little incident with Ashley."
Knowing that she had spread it out caused me anger. "What did you like about that little slut anyway?" "Don't you dare speak about Camila that way!" I spat in her face inching closer. "Why are you so drawn into a piece of shit? Face it Lauren you could do so much better than a depressed bitch." I balled my fists.
"Didn't she go to rehab because she didn't want to live. She's so pathetic honestly." She let out a laugh. I couldn't take it.
I slapped the books out of her hands and grabbed her by the shirt and slammed her into the lockers. "Fucking shut up. You don't known the slightest thing about Camila. She's so much more than you will ever be. I bet half the people you call friends hate you. You are a cold hearted bitch. And before you go calling her or anyone else a slut or pathetic look at your dirty self." I said through gritted teeth.
She only chuckled. "I'm not scared of you Lauren." "You disgust me. I fucking hate you." I let her go, adjusted my bag on my shoulder gave her one last look and left.
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*Camila's POV*
I sat on the edge of my window with my guitar in my arms. I had been sitting like this for an hour without playing. Its not that I didn't want to play. But the only thing that was stuck in my mind was the song Lauren had played for me when I had gone over for dinner.
I sighed heavily and put it down. No matter how mad I was at her or how much I told myself I hated her, my heart would find a way to make me crave for her. As much as I didn't want to admit; I missed her.
I don't deserve her in the first place. It surprises me still that she took an interest I me. I'm so fucked up. I basically ruined her life by reappearing.
If only I was enough for her then maybe we could live happily, but for now. She needs someone who is happy enough to make her happy too.
She tried so hard to speak to me, but I knew that if I let her I'd let myself forgive her and run into her arms like I wanted. But no. I wouldn't let myself. Instead its time to let her go.
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*A/N*
Hey! one more chapter left. But, but. I'm planning a sequel to this so be on the look out for it.
But omfg have you guys listened to The Album? I'm so addicted to it! I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO BE OFFICIALLY OUT!
What's your favorite song from it? Mine is Like Mariah and We know :)
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RandomLauren and Camila separated as little kids. They think they don't remember each other. When Camila moves to the same school as Lauren and gets bullied. Lauren helps her through it. When they realize they were friends as kids they become close again...
