The Magician || Jinkook

20. a

Jin

I wake up tucked in next to Jungkook on the bed and he has his arm thrown over me. He's sound asleep despite the daylight flowing in through the windows. It's funny how innocent and defenseless he looks despite what happened last night. His cheek is squished against the pillow and he's been drooling a little bit. I don't remember falling asleep, so I assume I passed out in the bathtub and he carried me over here. I move a little to make myself more comfortable and there's no denying the sting in my ass. It hurts but I'm so glad to have it there again. It's proof of what we did. Even if just for a moment, Satan came back to me. 

A long while passes and I quietly just watch Jungkook as he sleeps without a care in the world. What will he be like when he wakes up? Will Satan still be there or has he gone into hiding again? I'm not sure what to do if that's the case. This was my final plan. If sleeping with him doesn't work then what will? Does it even matter if he remembers? I think Jungkook likes me either way and honestly I like the human Jungkook too. Maybe if he never remembers me we'll be able to live a life free of misery. 

...But I still want him to remember me. Truth be told I'm feeling a bit lonely being the only one who remembers now that Taehyung doesn't have his memories. But on the other hand his words made me worry what will happen if Jungkook regains his memories as Satan. I mean, Satan wasn't really a good person. Does he really want to remember all the bad things he did? Am I being selfish for trying to force him to remember? His biggest wish was to become a human and now he finally is one, free of all the sins. Is bringing back his past the best thing to do? I don't know. 

Without even realizing it my hand moves out to touch his face and I move my thumb across the little scar on his cheek. How did he get it in this life? Perhaps it just carried over from his past one. How many lifetimes has he spent without me? Is this his first one or has he been endlessly searching for me? Has he even been searching at all? He doesn't remember me, so how would he know what to look for? 

I tense up when his eyes suddenly open and he stares right at me. I don't move to see what kind of reaction he'll have upon seeing me here, and I'm left a bit disappointed when his eyes widen in surprise and he immediately sits up. Guess Satan packed up and left again. 

"J-Jin... Uh, good morning," he says while awkwardly scratching the back of his head. He looks so good with his hair let out of that stupid bun. Not to mention how good he looks without clothes. 

"Good morning," I answer back. "I was gonna ask if you slept well, but I already know you did. You drooled an ocean on your pillow."

He snaps his head towards the pillow in question and flips it over to the other side to hide the wet stain. Cute. His eyes go over to me as I lay on the bed and they soon dart off in another direction when he notices I've kicked off the blanket. Not my fault his apartment is hot as a sauna in the morning. 

"So... how are you feeling?" he asks. "You dozed off in the tub last night. Hope you don't mind that I slept with you here. I considered sleeping in the bathroom again but since the tub was wet I decided against it."

I roll my eyes at him even though he can't see it since he refuses to look at me. 

"Dumbass, of course I don't mind."

"Oh OK then... Good."

He sits at the side of the bed and there's a long silence between us. I wait for him to say something or do something but he just sits there with his back towards me. 

"Are you seriously making this awkward now?" I ask. 

"M-me? I'm not making it awkward."

"Yes you are. You're not even looking at me."