I Won't Spread My Legs To You (UNDER REVISION)

CHAPTER 9

Thalia Axhiana Veron

I was taken aback when I walked along the hallway 'cause gossips about me being a whore and the glimpse of disgust in their eyes these past few weeks were all gone. Grabe? What happened? They're all smiling and greeting me with sweet good mornings. Kakawindang ha? Dinaig ko pa yata yo'ng mga professors sa sobrang dami ng bumati sa akin ngayon.

As I entered the classroom gano'n din ang treatment nila rito. Smile-smile tapos may pawave-wave pa. Weh? Ang weird! Ano yo'n out of a sudden naging thoughtful na lang sila sa akin? Ano ba talagang nangyayari?

Nagtama ang mata namin ni Hades at ang blanko ng mga titig niya sa akin. Nang uupo na ako sa kanyang tabi, bigla itong tumayo at nakipag-palit kay Cody.

Damn! Damn! Damn!

Hindi ko na inalintana pa ang dahilan ng mga blank stares ni Hades. Ngayon, parang sasabog ang puso ko sa kaba at the same time sa kilig.

Dang! I know, I know I'm damn twenty-two and I'm not a teenage girl to act like this, but can you blame me? After almost three years of admiring him, this was the first time he's too close to me.

My eyes dilated when Cody caught me off guard—staring at him, but agad-agad ko ring binalik sa normal size ang aking mga mata ko kasi baka mahalata niyang natataranta ako dahil sa kanya.

He suddenly smiled at me.

Fudge! Fudge! Fudge! I repeatedly said in my mind— panicking due to being puff up.

I managed to smile back and my lips quivered when I do that.

Seriously Thalia? You're just going to smile back, but nanginginig ka pa? Anong itsura mo ro'n? Argh, Thalia Axhiana! For sure, you look like refraining yourself to elicit some shit!

Good thing, our professor came so I have a valid reason to avoid his stares.

I discreetly thumped my chest. Damn, nagkakarera ang mga pintig ng puso ko.

The notion that he was at my side and he smiled at me caused me to skip breathing for seconds. Why I'm acting like this? Ang pabebe!

I gradually inhaled and exhaled as I surged and swished my hand to give a flare of wind to myself.

"Thalia."

I froze when Cody uttered my name. Nagdalawang isip pa ako, if I would pretend that I didn't hear him so I can prevent myself behaving awkward stuff right in front of him? Or I'll turn my head to face him?

"Thalia," he called me again. Damn, bakit bigla yatang gumanda ang aking pangalan sa pandinig ko?

"W-why?" I stammered so I abruptly cleared the lump down to my throat and repeated my word. "I mean, why? Why?" I bit my inside cheeks. "Sorry, kagagaling ko lang kasi sa sore throat kaya nauutal ako," I reasoned out and cleared my throat again.

Pisti, mukha akong timang sa ginagawa ko!

He laughed. Damn, parang lullaby. Nakakarelax pakinggan sa ears!

I squeezed my arm to chill out myself.

"Are you not going to do the task?" tanong niya kaya naman nailibot ko ang mga tingin sa ibang estudyante na nasa loob ng silid. Abalang-abala sila samantalang ako, nakatanga lang.

Tumawa ako, yung tawang 'di naman halatang peke. "Gagawin ko. I'm just contemplating ideas I'll write down," palusot ko at tumango naman siya.

Okay, lie. I don't even know what I'm going to write down.

Ano ba yung gagawin naming task? Pasimple akong tumingin sa kabilang dako and in my luck, nahagilap agad ng aking mata yo'ng paksa na dapat naming isulat.

Sa aking kalagitnaan ng pagsusulat, I accidentally drifted my ballpen down to the surface.

Agad akong yumuko para kunin yo'n but in my surprise, there's another hand get it. Kaya imbis yung ballpen yung nahawakan ko, yung kamay nito ang nahawakan ko.

I immediately take off my hands away from him as I approached our lecturer to admit myself to depart inside the classroom. Pumayag naman ito, kaya agad-agad akong pumunta sa restroom at pumunta sa may sink para humarap sa salamin.

I saw my reflection. Damn, my face was so reddish kahit 'di naman ako nagblush-on.

I bit my lower lip as I gently caressed my hand where I accidentally touch Cody's hand.

Nang nahawakan ko ang kamay niya parang may elektrisidad na dumaloy sa sistema ko. Damn, pinagsasabi ko nakuryente ka gurl?

I poked myself as I couldn't suppress the smiles fleeing upon my lips.

"Ang soft ng kamay niya," bulong ko habang nakangiti abot tenga.

I shook my head and then gently slapped my cheeks. "Umayos ka Thalia! Remember you've been crushing Cody and you achieve to hide it for almost three years. Ngayon ka pa ba magpapahalata? Damn, itago mo yan! Umayos ka!"

"But I just accomplished to conceal my feelings for all these years because we didn't have any interaction even once, kasi 'di ko siya kailanman nakaka-group sa mga task neither nakakapartner sa mga activities nor mga circumstances na magbibigay ng way para magkaroon kami ng interchange of conversation. As in ngayon lang so I'm really in panic and can't generate myself to act normal."

I inhale.

I exhaled.

"Stop Thalia and calm yourself. Act normal and don't be too obvious, okay? Or else your effort to hide your feelings will be wasted! Wag pabubuko!" saad ko sa sarili at tinapik-tapik muna ang aking mga pisngi bago bumalik sa silid.

I didn't toss even one glance at Cody again and pretend like I didn't run off lately after I held his hand. Mabuti na lang at nasa desk na yung pen ko kaya wala nang rason para i-approach niya ako nor i-approach ko siya.