I Won't Spread My Legs To You (UNDER REVISION)

CHAPTER 20

Thalia Axhiana Veron

Matalim ang mga mata ko habang nakatitig sa babaeng kahalikan ni Hades.

I curled up my fist. Nakakainis, halatang enjoy na enjoy pa sila!

I bit my bottom lip as fury boiled up to my head. The way he touch the woman was very similar to mine. I hate that fact. And I felt betrayed even though I'm not.

"Thalia, are you avoiding me?" Hades asked out of a sudden when we crossed our paths along the hallway.

I didn't dare to shoot a stare at him and didn't have the hesitancy to surpass the spot where he was—pretending I don't catch a glimpse of him nor hear anything from his remarks.

I could feel his figure wavering behind my back, pursuing the same pace as mine.

Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang bigla niyang hinapit ang aking bewang at agad akong pinasok sa bakanteng silid na malapit sa aming gawi. My back slammed against the wall but it didn't hurt because his arm was supporting my back. "Why are you avoiding me? Did I do something wrong? Tell me, you're making me so clueless bab---" He halted.

"Cut that endearment. Ilang babae na ang tinawag mo ng ganyan! I hate it!"

He creased his eyesbrows, the transparency of confusion and shock flashed on his complexion. "Are you jealous? Did I do something wrong?" he asked with a mischievous grin. Damn, anong nakakatuwa?

"Are you jealous? Did I do something wrong?" I mimicked and looked at him with hatred. "Acting like you've got an amnesia? Huh? Don't tell me you didn't know that you kiss another woman, after you finger fuck me the other day. It's disgusting Hades! Disgusting! Ginamit mo ako then later on gagamit ka rin ng iba! Yeah, I know your length didn't enter yet inside me, but your finger and tongue already did it!" I didn't know what's gotten in to me, but I became so stupid and gave him the permission to touch me all over again. We often make out, but we never do the actual fuck. Weird isn't?

"You're making me feel so bad. It feels like I'm just one of your sex toys. Na kapag nagsawa ka na kakalaro sa akin, hahanap ka ng ibang lalaruin." Damn, I couldn't understand myself! Why it seems like I'm demanding that I should be the one who can be with him doing such things? There's definitely no us! Nature niya naman na talaga yo'n pero bakit nagagalit ako? Dahil ba sa ego ko? Or what? May feelings na ba ako sa kanya? Or lust lang 'to? My mind is totally in chaos, seeking for the answers of my own questions. Parang gaga! Gulong-gulo na ako!

He avoid his stares at me. "I'm sorry, but let me exp---"

"Damn feeling ko angdumi-dumi ko na..." garalgal kong sabi habang pinipigilan ko ang mga nagsisilabasang butil ng luha mula sa aking mga mata.

"Fuck don't say that! Hindi ka ganoon," diin niyang ani at saka hinawakan ang aking magkabilang pisngi.

"I hate the fact that I'm addicted to your touch. Why are you driving me crazy Hades? Huh? Because of you I turned into a horny person. I've been dying often for your touch. Nakakainis. Nakakainis!"

"Shush, Thalia..."

"Candidly, I look so stupid. Last time, I cried damn hard and begging you to stop teasing me and then ngayon umiiyak ako kasi kasi...." Damn, I can't find the right words to say. Ano nga ba? "Kasi..." I gulped as I tousled my hair. "I don't know the certain reason why, but I know dahil sayo yo'n kaya kung pwede lumayo ka sa akin, please. Lumayo ka na. This time lumayo ka na talaga..." I uttered. At tinahak ang daan papalayo sa kanya.

Sa kalangitnaan ng aking paglalakad may bigla na lang akong nakabunggo.

Damn, panira naman ng moment. Umiiyak ako e!

The books I had in my arms fell on the ground then I felt another figure crouched to help me get it.

I looked up to who is it, Cody.

I bit my lip and l didn't blinked an eye to refrain myself from shedding a tear and making a sound.

He gave me my books.

"Thank you," I murmured and I was about to turn my back when his fingers gently tapped my shoulder.

He smiled at me and outstretched his hand, offering his handkerchief. "I don't know what's the reason behind those tears, but if you felt like crying, then cry. After all, there's nothing wrong to be weak sometimes. Wag mong pigilan, mas bibigat ang pakiramdam mo."

I waved my hand."Thanks for the wisdom, but there's no need for you to lend me your handkerchief."  I refused but he held my hand and entrenched the hankie on my palm. "Take this, you need it." He curled up my fist, preventing it to hold precariously.

Hindi na ako umawat sa kanya, marahil papahabain ko lang ang usapan. Ngumiti siya sa akin at pagkatapos ay naglakad na rin papalayo.

I plopped my hand on my chest. Pinakiramdaman ko ang aking sarili ko. Why I didn't feel flattered when Cody indicated sort of simple act of kindness to me? Bakit 'di ako kinilig kagaya ng dati? Wala na ba siyang epekto sa akin? Damn, bakit?

Siguro kasi may iba na....

I shut off my eyes and let my tears fell down.

Maybe, I'm starting to fall with that colossal pervert jerk...

"Nakakainis ka Hades!" bulong ko sa hangin habang pinupunasan ang aking luha gamit ang panyo na pinahiram sa akin ni Cody.