~The Move to Korea~

27.

Kinda tired of saying 22+, Oh well if you read it then you read it hehehe

"Xiu...I can't handle this. I wouldn't have found out Tae was cheating on me if I just slept in my own own house and I regret not doing it. I just wanted a whole family for Jinhwan so he wouldn't have to be like me and I wanted to leave Jinhwan here with Tae but Chanyeol wants to take the responsibility of a father to take care of Jinhwan with me,"

"Do you really want to do this to the both of them? Jay needs a dad and a mom while Yeol wants to be the father,"

"But...I just..."

Silence kicked in and I knew I had to cry about it or it was going to make my list of things that bother me even more longer than it was.

"It's Chanyeol. I regret getting into his bed and having sex with him. I don't know what to do. Im so pathetic,"

I started to let tears fall as my breathing became uneasy. Xiumin pulled me into his arms and I keep on crying. I could cry as loud as I wanted to and his chest muffled everything. He started to rub my back as an instinct but he stopped when I wrapped my arms around his torso. I gripped his shirt in clumps and buried my sobs in his collar bone. I tried to speak but Xiumin hushed me.

"Li don't do this to yourself okay? It's going to be alright,"

"If I just went into the house..."

"Why didn't you though?"

"I saw a vision of my mother and I knew that she was dead and -"

"Okay I understand now. You didn't want to go into Bobby's house so you insisted on going somewhere else. Taeyong told you that he got a house for the both of you and you found out he was cheating on you. Chanyeol was there to comfort you and you started to develop feeling for him. You decided that leaving Seoul was a good idea so you packed your things and the people that are coming packed also. You didn't want to be at Bobby's so you wanted to go with Chanyeol. You had sex with Chanyeol but you love Taeyong but he cheated on you and you are very upset and confused. You just don't know how to handle it. Am I correct?"

"You are,"

"But...like do you want to be with Chanyeol or Taeyong?"

"That's the problem...I don't know if I want to be with Chanyeol but he asked me to be his and agreed,"

"Do you even like Chanyeol?"

"I don't like him, I love the hell out of him. I just scared to love him,"

"Are you over Taeyong yet?"

"I am. I want to be done with him but he knows me like the back of his own hand and he'll use it against me,"

"If he tries to do anything of that sort I will beat him up,"

"I give you full permission to do so,"

"I think that girl is going to dump him anyway and he's going to regret cheating on you,"

"Should have never done it in the first place,"

"Point made,"

"I'm going to miss you,"

"I'm going to miss you too," Xiumin pulls me into hug for a second but let's go.

"I'm going to miss one more thing,"

"What is that?"

"A place where I could be myself. I have the best and the worse memories there. It's a place that comforts me and makes me feel a lot better once I leave it,"