~The Move to Korea~

37.

Morning - 10:18 am

"Wake!" Lin jumps on me.

"I'm awake!" I say as turn over on my stomach.

"I hungry,"

"Can we eat out?" I turn to look at her.

She nods and jumps back onto the floor to let me up. I grab a hair tie and put my hair back up into pony tail. I wanted a shower but I really wanted to please the hungry child pulling on my loose t-shirt. I make my way downstairs to fix some breakfast. After I had made eggs and pancakes, all the boys came down and ask for food too. I fed them but I wanted to head out the out before 12 while the mall opens at 10 anyways. When they were still eating I had finished and trekked upstairs to my room. I slipped into a pair of ripped blue jeans and a tan sweater. I added a gold necklace and white converses. I brush out my hair since it was naturally straight. As soon as I grab my wallet Lin comes in with a pair of familiar black sweatpants and red padded jacket. When I noticed they were the clothes from Chan's room I was happy that someone clothed her. I finally pick up my wallet I grab out a used card and my phone and I tuck it inside the little card holder on the back. We made our way back downstairs while I grab my keys out of the dish near the door and into my barely used Audi R8.

"Haircut!"

I chuckle quietly to myself and turn on my Chillboi playlist. The first song to come on was Blackbear - Hot Girl Bummer. Lin was young but I didn't mind the cussing. Apparently she turned to volume up and mumbled along.

"We have arrived!" I drag out the last word happily.

I turn the engine off and I get out to help Lin out of the car but mostly she opened the door all by herself. She holds my hand and sticks close to me. Since we both look like bums I decided to get us a pamper day and get mani's and pedi's and stuff like that. My roots were showing from my blonde highlights and my complexion was really bad. I was deciding on my natural black hair color but Lin wanted me to get darkish brown highlights and jet black hair color, she even wanted me to get a pixie cut! We agreed to get the same hairstyle and color. At the end of the argument and decisions we both settled on a cute semi bob with dark brown highlights with the jet black base hair color.

When the hairdresser cut my hair I was so shocked that I was going with a short hair cut all I could do was gape at the cut hair on the floor. In the end it looked really good and Lin was already done before me. I went back up to the front desk to ask for the cost. She charged 78 for both of us so I pulled out my credit card and paid the woman. Lin dragged me out of the salon and to a new nail shop. I never knew that it was there so I stepped in and a younger lady greeted me and assisted me in my nail choices. I got a pink ombre with sparkles on the ring finger and Lin got my sparkle on everything including her toes.

After we had finished going shopping for Lin's clothes, I head up to Victoria Secret for some perfume I had saw on Pinterest. I had to choose from either Bane Vanilla or Velvet Petals. Velvet Petals didn't smell as good as Bane Vanilla so I got both of them and their lotions too. Bath & Body works was close so I stop by. Lin wanted Pretty as a Peach and Sea Island Cotton and I bought it for her. I could tell Lin was exhausted so I took her back home. She asked me why I couldn't bring her but I never responded and ask Minho to take care of her while I was gone.

Yes, I went to the hospital to check up with the doctors. As I went into the hospital and up to the desk one of Chanyeol's doctors came rushing out to me.

"Li! Oh thank god you're here. Chanyeol will reside in the hospital for at least a year. I'm so sorry that it will take that long for him to recover but we will try our hardest to speed up the process. Chanyeol will only allow a man by the name of Xiumin to visit him,"

"Are you kidding me?! I can't even see my fiancé? What kind of crap is that? I don't care if he doesn't want me in there I want to be in there with him. C'mon Doc please just a peek through the window?"

"I have to follow his requests with strict caution,"

"I am so tired of the bullshit! I want to see him and I want to see him now. I have lived over 3 months without any call or anything from him. I just miss him so much and I am so tired of sobbing and worrying at night because he is here and not at home,"

"Ma'am I am sorry I can't do that," The doctor just walks away with a sad smile.

"Fuck you!" I yell down the hallway to him.

I was so enraged by his response I punch the wall outside of the stupid building. I hopped back in my Audi and hit the highway back home. I cried. I had tears streaming down my face while my hand was still on the steering wheel. Even when I parked by the graveyard I was still shedding tears. I cried out for Jinhwan. I knew this place so well that its scary. I ran over to my child's tombstone and dropped on my knee's and weeped in front of him. I curled up on the cold stone and continued to grieve. It was like I could stop my emotions and the river of tears. I think I was there for about an hour before I started to nod off. My dream was about nothing, I was just in a warm darkness.

When I woke up it was dusk, the kind with stars spread everywhere. My lethargic side came to wake too so when I got up I was drained of energy to move. Fatigued, I walked slothful to my car. Knowing full well about what I was going to do I got in and drove home. Parking in the driveway I got out and made my way to the kitchen without any disturbances. I grab a random bottle of alcohol and opened it up. I chug down some of the sweet liquid and run my cold hands through my hair.

I guzzle down the rest of the vodka when I got on my bed. Assuming no one was awake I shut off the lights with a clap and fell back into my soft blanket. I was knocked out for the rest of the night.