~The Move to Korea~

29.

"Chan and I.N, and Changbin," I point behind me.

The doors were closed so I said the next pair and on to the next and the next.

"Minho and Seungmin,"

I dust off my hands and get up from where I was now sitting because it took too long for this. But then I remembered Yeol and Jay whom were still standing, I guess waiting to be called up to see their rooms.

"Yeol, Come with me,"

"Come on Jay, follow Ma-ma," Chanyeol says quietly to Jay but was off to chase me.

I was upstairs in no time and picked up Jay and went into my room with the both of them.

"Your's?"

"Jay is to the left and you are the right. Your door is next to the master bathroom so expect me to come through often,"

"I don't understand, come through often?"

"Oh! I didn't show you yet. Come here, watch this,"

Excitement rushed through my veins as to this was the most amazing thing this house could have. When I placed Jay on my bed, I press a little button under the TV and the wall moved just enough for a grown man to walk through.

"What in the...how's that even possible?"

"It's a secret my mom and I kept from my dad. Every time he would come try to find me I would go into the wall and hide there but, I always had to listen to his harsh statements towards me or mom. I wonder if..."

I step closer to get a better look inside the the wall. The string lights were still there from 15 years ago. Since I had my phone with me I turn on the flash light and go inside.

"Li..."

I squat down and pull up the 5th floor board and find 2 dusty old books. I only hid one and not two so I was confused when I saw two.

I pick them up and blow off the top dust and open the bottom one first. It was my diary when I was 5 and I flipped through some pages and an envelope fell out. I picked it up and dusted it off quickly and read the front.

To~ Li Li ❤️

From : MOM

I wasn't ready to see it so I dropped it and all flashbacks came back to me after 10 years of trying to bury it in a dark corner. I was staggering back and wanted out and away from the envelope and the room.

"Baby? What's Wrong? Are you okay?" He brushed past me to see what I had found.

"Don't Touch It Chanyeol,"

"I won't bother about it," He stands back up and stands in front of me with concern clearly showing.

"Im...going to see how the boys are doing. Can you please check out your room and take Jay with you," I close the wall and gather myself while I walk out of my room.

I go to the first sticky note and opened the door. I let whoever was in there to go get their stuff and on with the next person. Then when they came back with all the luggage they had, I let the other one's go.

I get everyone done in about 30-40 minutes and now I have to get my suitcases but I don't want to. I feel out of energy now that I have seen the envelope and I wanted to read it but then I didn't want to.

"What am I going to do?" I ruffle my hair and sigh.

I go back into my own room and look at the walk-in closet. It was huge so I could fit all of my clothes in there. I go outside and start to get my luggage in my room. After about 10 minutes of struggle to get all 4 of my suitcases in my house. I was feeling better so I go out and get Chanyeol's things and put them at the top of the stairs where mine were.

"It's 9:34?! We are going to have to go grocery shopping tomorrow,"

I make a mental note of going shopping for food and baby clothes for the next day. I go ahead and knock on Chanyeol's door, He says come in. I pop my head in the doorway to let him know that I had brung his stuff in.

"We can unpack tomorrow cause it's 10," Chanyeol suggested.

"I might unpack bit but I need to take a shower,"

"Okay,"

I close his door and open mine so I could transfer my belongings in my room, which I did successfully. I close my door and bring the 3 large suitcases into the closet and looked through all of them to find pajama's. All I could find was a black robe with galactic planets on it and pumpkin pattern shorts and a white t-shirt that says 'Pumpkin spice is always nice' . I choose the pumpkin one and throw it on the floor outside the closet near my bed. I get a new pair of underwear and I zip up every thing, turn off the lights and shut the door.

I pick up my pajamas and open the wall to go into the bathroom. But Chanyeol had already jumped into the shower but luckily there were two showers. I took off my clothes, draped my stuff on the counter and put a towel on top and jumped into the other shower and turned on the warm water. I watered myself down and turned off the water but Chanyeol was still in the shower, surprisingly. I dry off and put on my comfy pumpkin pajamas then I dry off my hair and put a lazy ass bun on my head.

"Whatever, he can live," I say as I enter his room. I didn't want to go back into my room yet so I lay on his bed and mess up his sheets a bit. I was so tired from today I fell right to sleep on his bed.

Dream -

A pink sand and blue waters island were in my sight when I looked around.

"The weight of the abuse has lifted your soul but all you need is your mother and everything would be perfect,"

"You are still here?"

"Yes Li, I will always be here,"

"I left you in that horrible place in my mind...Do you hate me?"

"I am grateful for that. I would have never found this place if you didn't go alone,"

"About my mother..."

My thing vanishes when I look at her but I hear the soft footsteps of a woman coming closer to me. I didn't even look behind me but I really wanted to see who it was. The lady came around me and stood there, in front of me.

"Baby? Is it really you?," The lady asks.

I look up after she said that and it was really my mom. Fresh and clean but tearing up a bit.

"Mommy?"

"Honey, come here,"

Her embraces were like warm honey to me. I never wanted them to ever end but this one did for a split second so she could see my face but I pulled the hug back together.

"I love you so much Li,"

"I love you too Mom,"

"I'm sorry that I am not here with you today but I promise that I will keep you safe,"

"Mom, I have never wanted to hug so bad as right now,"

Right now I was crying like I use to when I was 7. I just kept on crying until I was ready. I miss seeing her face when I woke up. How I used to jump into bed with her in the morning to wake her up but she was fake sleeping and pretended to be a zombie. I miss those times, like a lot and I feel sad that I wasn't 5 anymore so I could do these things.

"I will find you soon baby,"

"Mom. I found a letter in the wall, what is it?"

"That is for you to find out,"

"I love you,"

"I will always love you,"