Fallen Promise

One | Fallen Promise

          I was just like a normal person before, but now I've become different. I became that what you called angel, and that is a very blessed opportunity for me. I thank Him, yes God for giving me this chance. I was stuck in the heaven for a hundred years before receiving the mandate, and now becoming an angel. I'm kinda happy of what things are now, but still not that totally, what I actually wished though is to be reunited with the man that I loved before. Thousand years have already passed but I haven't encountered him yet in the human world. I was hoping that in the past years of me staying here and fulfilling missions I would have bumped into him, but it didn't happen.

          I know that in the years that have passed, if ever I bump into him he would definitely be different from the person I've known before. Like, hello it's already a thousand years, and here I am, the one that still doesn't forget about it. It's my fault actually because I did not allowed them to erase my memories. That's a part of a promise and vow to Clint before I die. I even jokingly told him before that he should not worry I'd be an angel for him, and look here I am now, an angel.

          My name is Dion Schmitz when I was still a human, and Clint Grossweiner was the man I loved. He was a childhood friend of mine. We have never ever parted before. Where am I, he's always there. It's funny that a sudden tragic happened in my life that I ended up leaving early. I saw them crying and mourning on my death. He was holding my hand and placed it in his heart while crying. His eyes were already swollen, and keeps on uttering the  words why, and telling me I love you.

          My soul was still wandering then, I can't leave while seeing them in that situation. My parents were so very silent, they are not talking to each other, I was their only daughter. Then my mom suddenly burst into tears. Dad approached her and hugged her tight while stroking his back. "She's still so young, her eyes are filled with dreams" my mom said. Upon her saying that, I bursted into tears.

          I left home and went to Clint's. He was locking himself in his room, looking at old pictures of us together. He was crying. "Why did you left? Do you remember that we promised to dig back the letter we buried, when we reach twenty? I still haven't told you what I felt?" I just watched him as he continued to talk. "You clumsy girl, I love you! What would I be doing in this world without you". He reached out for a box under his bed, it was completely sealed with a lock. He opened it, and took out something. It's a small little box, somehow it looked like a jewelry box of some sort. He opened it, and a sudden tear fell out of my eyes. "It may sound funny, that I have already planned this all along. Young as we are, I've known that you're the one. You're the only one. So when I went to a vacation, I spotted a beautiful ring, designed with diamond wings. I bought it and thought that this is the ring I'd be giving you when I propose in the future" he said and cried loudly. "Dion!!!!" He shouted. "Are you still around??" With what he said, I cried while I answer him, that I'm still here, even though that I know it's impossible that he can hear me. "This is for you Dion, this is for you." He said.

          I heard a couple of knocks at his door. It was his older brother Zander. He was knocking at the door, trying to convince Clint to come out. "Lil bro, I know you can hear me, it's already been three days, you'll die out of hunger". But Clint just answered, "I don't have a reason to live anymore, why should I". His brother continued to persuade him, "Dion will not be happy seeing you in that state, if her soul is still with you right now, she'll probably be angry, come out now, I'm here lil bro" what his brother said is truly what I really felt too.

          He opened the door, with his swollen eyes, and his body starting to crumble down, he reached for his brother's arm and cried again. "It's okay, I'm here lil bro, let it all out, I'll always be here for you, Dion will not be happy seeing you like that, she'll complain that your actual cheerfulness is fading" his brother said while comforting Clint. "But bro, I miss her so much" then Clint fell asleep. I can see that he's totally tired, I've been with him and he's been like that, good thing that he's brother returned home.

          The Last day that I stayed before I entered the light, I went to see him again. He was in front of my gravestone. He brought my favorite flower with him. He was crying again. It hurts me all the time he cries. I pleaded for the grim reaper to give me a chance to make him feel my presence, and hopefully he allowed me to. Where I was buried is surrounded with cherry blossoms, as the wind blew petals and leaves fell in a slow motion, then I looked at him, I knew that he felt something with that strange happening, I came closer to him, and kissed his cheeks. I know he can't see me, he touched his cheek then suddenly he smiled in tears. "I know you are there, I felt something touched my cheeks, if this is your way of saying goodbye for the last time, Dion I just wanted to say I love you. I'll love you always even though your not here, I will always come here for you, you're my one and only. I will not ever look for anyone, Cause I already found it with you, no one can replace that, I love You" after he said that, I felt a mixed feeling of sadness and happiness. The atmosphere returned to normal, and then I entered the light.

          That's the story of us. A memory that only I can remember. A memory that I always treasure. A memory that keeps me going. A memory that urged me to return. A memory that gives me happiness, and a memory that puts myself into misery as well. Sometimes there's this that always comes into my mind, "I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't".