I fly by school in no time, in order to distract myself from my bizarre conversation with Johnson this morning. I actually spend time working through my work and putting forth participation points for each class. All i want to do is get home and drown myself in homework and the playbook for this sunday's service, at least I hope it'll keep me distracted for long enough.
I rush out of my calculus class faster than everyone else and begin the journey to the parking lot. I totally blow pass speaking to Marilyn today till I see the oblivious girl talking to a few members of the honors society club. I try to push myself to walk past her but instead my feet move to pursue her, I walk past the forming crowd leaving the school my eyes set on Marilyn not noticing the person I bump into.
"Oh shit," I curse under my breath, "I'm sorry I didn't see you."
"It's fine...oh, hey charlie."
I look up to the other problem in my life, "Hey Sammy."
We take a few steps back from each other and granted I really didn't want Kami to unexpectedly show up and cause a scene - being the center of the universe was apart of her personality.
"Is everything alright?" He questions.
I nod my head, "Why wouldn't it be?"
He shrugs as if he wasn't sure what his question meant either, "Is Gilinsky here?" He diverts.
"No, he's actually busy."
Sammy raises an eyebrow, "Is everything okay?" He questions again, this time a little slower.
I unknowingly but don't hesitate to roll my eyes, "Why wouldn't it be Sam?" I say a bit harsher.
"Well you two are almost inseparable despite very separate lives," He says, "Plus he's an asshole, what couldn't be wrong?"
"He's not an asshole."
Sammy scoffs not persuaded, "If there'd anything Jack will ever be-"
"He's not an asshole Sammy and I don't appreciate you calling him that," I quickly defend. Now my frustration from finding Marilyn deflected on Sam, which is not what I need.
"Well Charlie, you cheated on me with him."
My breath gets caught in my throat as I glare up at Sammy and he slowly lets his response wash over him, each second regret coats over his face. It could've been said harsher, as it has been before between us but still the thought of it - the bitterness in my heart to do that to somebody, above anyone else - Sammy.
My perfect christian boyfriend.
My boring christian boyfriend.
I swallow something hard in my throat, "I thought we were past that. I mean, you're with Kami now, you clearly have moved on."
"Oh, I had a choice?" He chuckles sarcastically, he doesn't break eye contact and I begin to feel small, "You fucked my best friend privately, started dating him publicly, and what about me? what did I get out of this shit deal? The girl i'm dating can't even stand you, but that's only one of the few things we might have in common."
The words sink heavily in my chest, my head already too clouded to process them but I felt every one of Sammys words. It takes me back to when he first found out, how he yelled at me across the lawn.
He takes notice of my long pause and sighs heavily scanning the crowd trying to find a reason to walk away, "I just know Gilinsky can be an asshole, you just don't deserve that side of him."
