The beginning of the new week feels like the longest days of my life. My parents have sanctioned me off from the rest of the world since my arrest - well my detainee. My phone and any other sociable electronics were forbidden which meant no contact with the people I got arrested it - well, detained. I couldn't check in on Jordan, and even James, most importantly Jack.
I keep thinking about the last conversation with Jack. I try to convince myself over these past days that I didn't mean what I said to him, some of the things anyways.
I try to cheer myself up in the mirror, unfortunately this did not stop sunday service. If anything my parents were both now convinced that I needed it more than ever. Church wasn't my escape place anymore, too many bad memories but i know i won't see the people i've been avoiding there.
I place a set of pearl earrings in my ears finishing my look. Today I tried simple, I need to blend in more than i have been blending out lately. Who knows how fast word travels, all my dirty laundry has been aired out since I met Jack.
I take a deep breath before exiting my room and heading towards the front of the house. My mom stands in front of the mirror applying a coat of red lipstick, that is universal sign that shes currently feuding with my dad - probably about me.
"How'd you sleep?" He questions sipping onto a cup of coffee.
I attempt to joke, "A lot better with no screen time."
My dad fakes a smiles at me annoyed by my humor, "Im glad you like it that way."
"We're late," My mom mentions appearing from the restroom. For the first time i notice we're all in the same room together but it seems like even my mom is making an effort of ignoring my father.
She flashes me a toothy smile, "Honey, would you mind driving yourself today. You're father and i need to discuss private matters."
I stare at her cautiously, "About me?"
She chuckles in the silence and i have to take it as an obvious answer.
"We'll see you at the parking lot in 30 minutes okay?" She tells me before turning to my dad with a not so interested look, "Let's go."
I'm glad I didn't ride with my parents, we were over ten miles apart but even then I felt the tension from here. I ride to church in silence hoping to clear my head, It's the quietest my mind has been all week. Lately everything has been screaming for my attention it felt reliving to have a little peace of mind.
I step out of the car grabbing my belongings before locking my car doors. I made sure to park in the back to avoid any cluster of people but it wasn't the safest. The back of the parking lot is for the broke down cars or where people smoked a joint or something before service started.
I turn on my heel staring at my boyfriend in the churches parking lot. why was my boyfriend in the churches parking lot? he doesn't even like going to church.
I jump a bit at his sudden appearance, "Jesus fucking Christ."
"Watch it," He warns at my swearing.
I push my hair from my face recollecting myself, "What are you doing here?"
"What do you mean?" He questions taking a step towards me, as a reflex I take a step back. He watches my feet before stalling in his position deciding to stay put, "You haven't been answering my calls or text, I haven't heard anything from you in weeks,"
"My dad took my phone," I quickly explain, "Jack we can't really talk right now."
"You can't keep ignoring me Charlie."
