Never Again

ch.29 I'm sorry

Bakugo POV

(listen to this song while reading this chapter, it heightens the f e e l s)

(recap his mom is in the hospital) 

           I can feel my heart beating out of my chest. ''It's okay sweetie you'll be fine." She says reaching her hand out to caress my face. "No! You can do this. Ugh, fuck." It gets harder and harder to get the words to come out of my mouth. The tears unable to stop. I turn my head to face my dads reaction. he looks at me with tears in his eyes obviously trying to stay strong. Her hand moves from my cheeks to my hand. I look down at her hands holding mine. She rubs my knuckles losing the tight grip I didn't know I was holding. my knuckles getting the blood back in them. It felt like everything was calm at this moment just my mom and me.  She smiles with the last ounce of strength she has she says "I love you.' her eyes practically closed. "I love you too mom." Her grip on my hand loosens. A tear rolls down her face. I lean down to give her a hug but the heart monitors flat lines. Everything goes quiet, I can hear somebody talking to me but I can't tell what they're saying. I stand in shock as my mom lies there.... d- lifeless. Her smile reminds. My hands start shaking.

          Somebody grabs me by the shoulder to escort me out. I push their hand away with the last bit of strength I had left. I put my hands to my face feeling my eyes burn. I scream out in pain. My dad grabs me forcefully this time. "THIS IS FAKE IT HAS TO BE!"My voice scratchy.  My dad looks me with a sorrowed expression. I walk looking back at my mom one last time. "I'm sorry I say under my breath. As we walk out I can feel everyone's eyes. This has to be fake, this has to be fake this is a dream, ya I'm dreaming. we finally reach the car. My shirt now cold where all my... te- nevermind. I zone out as I sat in the car. My mind blank, I look up when I hear talking. "Do you wanna go back to the dorms or come home with me." i don't really think about and just say what comes to mind first. "Dorm." He nods. "i love you.' I nod and open the car door heading into the dorms. 

          I wipe my eyes trying to get rid of the evidence anything ever happened. I walk in with my head down, lucky for me nobody was in the lobby considering how late it is right now it makes. I take the elevator. Leaning against it zoning out. The sound of the doors jolt me from my trans. I walk down the hall to my room using the keycard. I slowly walk in making sure not to wake up kirishima.

        I lay down but as I'm about to there's a small voice. "Bakugo?" kirishima says in a kroggy voice. I don't answer hoping he'll just go back to sleep. I hear foot steps nearing me. He uses his flash light to flash it on me. i cover my eyes to protect them from the sudden bright light in my eyes. He notices my remiants of all that crying I did. "Are you okay?" he asks taking the flash off me. I don't respond. After a pause he asks another painful question. "Hows your mom?" I break out in another crying fit. i try to stay quiet the only noise being my breathing. "Are you crying?" He says leaning towards. I turn my head shaking my head even though he cant see me. He sits on the bed next to me. I can feel his rough colds hands on me. I take them off. "You wanna talk about it?" He asks in a gentle tone. My tears calm down. I lie down ignoring kirishima. I close my eyes trying to fall asleep. Kirishima moves his legs. i sigh then I feel something warm on my back. i feel kirishimas arms wrap around me.

    "Kirishima?' I say in almost inaudible. my voice so strained from how much I've... i grit my teeth. "It's okay he says gently in my back. i cry again covering my face with my arm. Kirishima holds me tighter. "You're okay." Is the last thing I hear before I fall asleep.

A/N

well shhittt haha, this was actually sad for me to write. Did yall get in your feels too? srry i didn't update I was v unmotivated. Thanks to te ppl who asked me to update it helps motivate me. This chapter was long but at least we got the boys cuddling and ANGST AHH YES TO THE ANGST. THAT'S all hope you enjoyed, peace out- Banana