TaeKook One Shots

Space Between (Part 4)

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A/N: This may seem unrealistic but bear with it please. Anyway, please listen to the song "Space Between" by Dove Cameron and Sofia Carson. I think it'll make this part better? 

Jungkook's POV

I walked home in a trance, my mind swimming with a million thoughts but none of it is making sense. It's like I suffered information overload and now it has impaired my capacity to process anything. The house is dark and empty when I reached home, a very unhealthy environment for my current state.

I immediately went to my room and locked it. Then I loaded the disc I'm carrying to the DVD player, my heart beating fast as to what images will be played on the television. The disc has been inserted in the journal so I assumed that Taehyung meant for me to be find and watch this.

Tears filled my eyes automatically when Taehyung's cheerful face appeared on the TV screen. Even though I spent almost every hour of the day gazing at his pictures in my phone, I still miss him so bad. It's still different when I see him personally and to feel his warm skin against mine.

Pictures and videos aren't enough. I want him to be with me physically... forever.

But it's already a lost dream.

A dream that had drifted along with the clouds... hopeless to chase and impossible to reach.

"Jungkookie! Are you watching this?" Taehyung grinned at the camera and pushed his hair back to prevent it from covering his eyes. "I hope you are... or else this will be worthless."

"Yes, I am... I am watching it baby," I whispered although I know it won't reach him. "I'm here. I'm right here in front of you. Always here for you."

"I'm not even sure why I made this video..." Taehyung laughed, the sound that I had missed so much. It made my chest tighten and the pool of tears in my eyes freed themselves. "Maybe... because... I'm just not ready to let you go yet."

"And I'm not ready too baby. I'll never be ready to let you go."

"Anyway!" Taehyung's sad eyes suddenly sparked with life. "I don't want this to become a depressing video. I just really want to share this song with you. I know that you know this by now since I've pestered you to listen to it countless of times."

Taehyung giggled as he fumbled with his phone.

"You could say that this song is my farewell message to you?"

True enough, a familiar melody filled my room as the song started playing in Taehyung's phone. I closed my eyes and not knowing why... I sang the first lines of the song.

"I didn't know what you were going through
I thought that you were fine
Why did you have to hide?"

I suddenly realized how fitting the song is with what happened. I was there beside Taehyung almost every day but I never realized what heavy burdens he's been carrying all along. I thought everything was okay but I didn't know Taehyung was dying on the inside.

How could I have been so careless? I should have paid more attention. I should have done something... anything to keep him alive.

"I didn't want to let you down
But the truth is out
It's tearing me apart, not listening to my heart"

I froze in place, my heart hammering wildly against my chest. It can't be true...

It should be impossible...

But I swear I heard the song being sang by Taehyung's voice...

And it's not from the video but... from behind me?!