Psychopath// (Jeonghan ff)

9. Sadness

Jeonghan's POV

Y/N looks so bothered when we drove home. She would glance at me but when I look at her, she'll look away.

"Y/N? You alright?"- I asked

"Are you?"- she asked back

I smiled at her and nodded.

"Aren't you scared?"- she asked

"I told you already."- I said

We arrived at our house and she quickly got off my car. She was about to run but I caught her hand. I saw her winced a bit making me confused.

"Are you hurt?"- I asked concerned

"N-no"- she said slowly pulling her hands

I grabbed her wrist and pulled her sleeves up. I saw 2 cuts on her wrist.

I pulled her quickly inside my house and looked for the first aid kit.

"When did you do this?"- I asked her

She just looked away not wanting to answer my question.

"Y/N..."

"Last night. They kept on whispering to me. But the moment I cut myself, it stopped. I feel satisfied"- she said

"Stop hurting yourself Y/N"

"This is the only way I can keep my promise. The only way I can refrain myself from killing someone Jeonghan"- she said smiling

"Hurt me instead. Stab me instead"

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Your POV

"Hurt me instead. Stab me instead"- he said making me look at him.

My face softened and smiled faintly at him.

"No Jeonghan. Not you. I can't"- I said and stood up.

I held Jeonghan's hand and dragged him outside towards my house.

"I saw this on our old house. You might want to see me all sane and angelic"- I said and slightly chuckled

He held the photo album and pulled me to sit beside him on the couch.

"Is this your mom?"- he asked pointing at the picture

"Yes. Beautiful isn't she?"

"You look just like her"- he said

"Too bad you didn't get to meet her. She's an amazing woman"- I said wiping my tears

"Is this you?"- Jeonghan pointed a picture of me smiling while holding an ice cream

"Innocent, yes? The moment I saw that picture I realized that I haven't smile for a long time."- I explained

"You look like a real angel here"- he said and took the picture out of the album

"I'm keeping this"- he said and put it inside his phone case.

I just shook my head and flipped the page.

"Who's this?"- Jeonghan asked eyeing the photo

"Minghao. He was my neighbor back then."- I said scratching my head a bit

"Your childhood love?"- he interrogated

A blush is visible in my face.

"It's n-not like that."

"What do you mean not like that, you look so shy here. You two even held hands"- he said and looked at me annoyed

"I'm just a kid! I'm still 5 at that time what the hell. And why are you looking at me like that!?"- I said raising my voice

"Let's take a picture too."- he suddenly said

He grabbed me and forced me to stand beside him. He angled the camera enough to show our slippers.

I just frowned but as soon as the flash turned on, he suddenly kissed my cheeks which caused me to widen my eyes.

"This looks good. I'll be having a new wallpaper"- he said showing me the picture which he made a background of his phone

This guy really.

Jeonghan went home at 4 o'clock saying that he'll be taking a bath. He wanted to stay with me but I forced him to go and assured that I'll be fine.

I searched for a paper and a pen and started writing something. It took me half an hour to finish it and when I looked at my watch, it's already 6 PM.

I heard the voices again but this time I smirked. I pulled my pocket knife and cut my wrist again.

"You think I'll follow you?"- I said and laughed.

"Satisfying. Crazily satisfying"- I said and chuckled feeling mesmerized by the red fluid dripping.

Suddenly, I regained my sanity and immediately threw the knife away my hands trembling.

Jeonghan's right. I shouldn't kill.

That time I decided and my mind was fixed. I should end this. I should end this craziness.

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