Psychopath// (Jeonghan ff)

13. Soul

Jeonghan's POV

It is a Saturday morning so I woke up late. Well not really, it's still 8. I took a bath and ate my breakfast. I went back to my room and saw Y/N's house still dimly lit though it's not dark. Y/N is a morning person so I know that she must be awake by now.

I decided to go to her house to check on her. When I stood in front of her house, it is still dimly lit. I was confused but still I knocked at the door, I squinted my eyes when the door suddenly burst open. It wasn't locked.

Her house was messy. The kitchen looks like hurricane ran through it. The knives were on the floor until I noticed, there were blood stains on the floor. My heart was beating fast. It can't be. No.

I ran upstairs towards her room. Her door was locked. I knocked as loud as possible but still there's no response. I forced the door open and saw Y/N, lying on the floor. Unconscious.

I hurriedly ran towards her. She's still breathing but it's faint. I was panicking. I carried her and quickly went to her car.

We arrived at the hospital. My clothes covered with her blood. She didn't just cut her wrist, she stabbed herself. I was crying when the nurses rushed her to the emergency room. I called the police to check her house, hoping that she didn't do it herself. I also called my parents and told them what happened but I'm still sobbing. I can't lose her, not now.

Hours after someone tapped my shoulder. I looked up seeing the doctor, he immediately looked down.

"I'm sorry. We did..."

"No! Y/N!"- I yelled and ran towards the room.

There she was, my beautiful Y/N. Covered with white cloth. My knees became weak. I walked towards the bed slowly and removed the cloth covering her. She's looks just like she's sleeping. She's just peacefully sleeping. My angel is just peacefully sleeping. I cried hard again. I can't see Y/N's precious smile anymore. I can't see Y/N's evil smirk anymore. No more Y/N to barge into my house and eat the bread. No more Y/N to give me letters. No more Y/N to feel my love.

"Hey kid"- someone said while I'm still crying

I looked up and saw two police men.

"We found this on her table. I'm guessing you're Jeonghan."- one of the police man said and gave me a paper.

"Maybe you need to go home."- the other police man said

"N-no. I'll stay here."- I said

"Please. The hospital will call you if it's okay to bring her body home"- he said

I looked down and followed them. They dropped me in my house and told me to wait for the hospital's call.

I looked at the paper in my hands and realized it was a letter. My tears flowed down my cheeks when I realized that this is the last letter I'll be reading from Y/N.

"Hey Jeonghan. I started writing letters for you days ago. You might not know this since you read my letters in the morning but I always leave the letters at exactly 7 PM, the moment I gain my sanity back, the moment I felt satisfied, the moment I'm done cutting myself. I'm sorry. I know you don't want me to do it but that's the only way I know for me to keep my promise. I remembered you told me if ever I feel like cutting myself, I should tell you and hurt you instead but Jeonghan I can't, at least not you. I didn't expect I'll be writing letters for someone, I mean, I lived for 2 years alone until you came. I was used in being alone but I feel so lonely whenever I don't get to see you. Thank you for letting me feel that I'm loved though I'm like this. You don't know how fluttered I am when you told me you love me. Let me tell you a secret, I love you too but please forget it. You can't love me. At least for now. I don't have a chance to say goodbye in person because I can't do that and letters are my only way. I'm sorry. I know you don't want me to kill anymore but I promise, this will be the last time. Old habits die hard right? But this time, I am my last victim. If ever I'll be born again in my next life, I hope we'll meet again and by that, I won't be the psychopath who run around every night. Until we meet again, nae sarang."

My tears keep streaming down my face as I read the letter. She loves me. I smiled painfully.

"I don't regret falling in love with you Y/N. If ever I'll be born again, I'll make sure I'll find you. 'Til we meet again, nae sarang"

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