Cupid's cafe {[pjm/myg]}

Chapter seventeen

It has been three days. Jimin still had five more days till he could be released into bed rest at my apartment. Jimin was so excited. Since that night Jimin cut his arm he has been in little space. Woke up and fell asleep a little. I talked to Taehyung and he also agreed it was weird that Jimin had no idea what he was doing during the flashback. We are flying blind in this, all we know is that Jimin's trigger is blood. He's been vague in the descriptions that he gives us while in the trance. I asked around form the doctors if they have ever heard of it. All the doctors in the whole hospital said that they have never heard of it. And they also assured Jimin he was lying but I knew that that would never happen. Jimin never lies in little space, it is a way to hear for him. And when he lies he not only fumbles over his words and stutters but he also can't sit still and when Jimin said that he had no idea he was telling the truth.

I had no choice but to do some digging when Jimin was asleep. The first night I ran back to the house to grab a laptop and such. Then I would start the digging. I even asked Amanda if I could borrow one of her nursing books to fact check and to get some more visuals. One night my laptop died and I didn't have the charger. I started to read the book and got some interesting facts.

But after five days of research, it was time for Jimin and me to head home. It was relieving not to have to sleep on the chairs or a little sheet on the floor anymore but also was worried not knowing if I would be able to help Jimin. The first night wasn't bad. Jimin was given the ok to walk short distances and to keep increasing the distance at a slow pace. So every night we would walk on top of the distance Jimin would walk to the bathroom and the living room. Jimin was ok with walking but was exhausted after the day ended. Jimin also would go in and out of big space and little space. So I was kinda hard to keep a conversation going. One minute I would be talking to a light-hearted baby and the next a gloomy adult. The two headspaces were no only throwing me off but Jimin too

"I fucking hate this. I wish I could just pick what headspace" Jimin shouted and throw something at the wall making a thumb sound. I ran to the nursery and saw a wooden book on the floor next to the door.

" Jimin really why are you throwing things," I asked even if he was in a big space he nows, not the throw things and if he was little again then he would get the scold and should be apologizing.

" Yoongi please." Jimin sassed as if he really just rolled his eyes.

" Jimin, may I remind you, we don't throw things big or little. There is no 'Yoongi please' happening in this apartment. I am not only your caregiver but I am your boyfriend. There is no reason you should be pushing me away" Jimin's head was lowered. He started to fidget. He slipped back into little space from my scolding

" I sowwy daddy '' Jimin said, no eye contact, no sound, just the shaking shoulders of my little. I stopped what I was doing and picked him up. His legs warped around me with no hesitation, his arms were placed around my neck and my arm was under his bum and on his back to support him in the air.

" it is ok Minnie but daddy is here for a reason. I am here to support you and help my baby boy. I know it has been stressful and that is why you keep switching but we have tools for when we get stressed and angry and throwing a good night moon is not the way ok." Jimin nodded

" sowwy goo night moon, "Jimin said as I walked away from the book and towards the kitchen. It has been a while since Jimin ate but I wanted to get Jimin in deeper to the headspace because as I have read the deeper you are the harder it is to get out. And I think Jimin is happier in little space than in big. Jimin's age right now is between four to five and I need to get him in 5 months to a year for him to be deep enough not to switch too easily.

" Does my baby boy have a bottle?" Jimin nodded yes. knowing his word triggers to go to a deep headspace. I know that I should be asking questions that can be asked nonverbally, so the transition to a littler space can be easier and safer. You don't want to put them in a littler space while they are standing up because they need to be sitting not only to make it so the little doesn't fall if your wording pushes them littler but you also have to make them feel little. I kept Jimin on my hip. He is really clingy when he feels smaller, usual and that is the goal right now to make him feel smaller than normally would be. Jimin trained his mind for always being in an older headspace because he needs to take care of himself. But now I can finesse him into a much younger state and that helps him tremendously. Once I was done with his bottle I carried him into the living room. I sat down and put Jimin on my lap. I laid his back on my arm and leaned him down. Kinda like what you do with a baby when you bottle feed them. The way Jimin looked up at me was so precious. I can't tell you how much I love Jimin and all his cuteness. His big round eyes looked up as if I was the best person in the world. Ignoring all the bad things I am ever done. It was honestly one of the best moments I have had with him. After Jimin finished with his bottle I put him down on the soft carpet and put the bottle in the sink and began washing it when I felt a tug on my sweatpants. Jimin put his arms up for me to hold him. I stopped the running water, dried my hands, and picked my baby up. Jimin was about one. He can crawl and walk but he likes crawling better. I have completed my mission. I walked us to my room and laid down. Jimin wiggled onto my chest and took a little noon nap as I scrolled through my Instagram feed. I took a picture and would ask Jimin about posting it later. I walked away and went to finish my tasks around the house.