I used to be so lonely
With him
His dark hair would tempt me to walk onto thin wire across the buildings
The buildings of New York City
His dark empty eyes
Would send me into a void
Disguised as a simple crack in the ground beneath me
His pale skin would lead me to my white bath tub
Filled with the water
And secrets that left my eyes
Daft and grim
And him dark and adventurous
His black attire
haunted me
As he trailed behind my life
Every waking day
Just to make me cry and weep at night
But for now I'm alright
Because he isn't swirling in my thoughts
No longer will I prolonge my thoughts of him
I will not allow my eyes to be daft and grim
I will allow myself to see the light within my life
The ones who surround me
Truly love me
So for now
Being lonely is something that is exquisite to me
Because being alone with death
Might have just lead me
To the depths of his empty eyes
He could've choked me with his black tie
And the thoughts he gave me
wouldv'e have drowned me in despair as I bathe at night
But I cut the thoughts of him
death
Out of my life
And I will truly kiss his lips
with bliss
When its my time
