If I'm dead
Why do I feel the crushing anxiety
as heavy as lead
when I am supposed to be dead?
Why is my face wet
as I look down at all who are below my head
if my breathing is nonexistent?
if I'm dead
then why
do I feel so bad?
Have my demons lied to me?
Of course, they have
They are demons
with ravenous evils surrounding and inflicting them
I'm dead
I died
You're sad
And you have cried a million times
I'm dead
and I'm sorry
please bring me back
so I can make you laugh again
so I can reverse the trauma inflicted onto your poor soul
take me back to the tranquility of your dearest smile
If I am dead
drown me in their sadness
burn me at the stake
commit lawful arson
but I know
that there is no justice
not for them
not for me
not for anyone in between
so, please
let me be dead
internally
so I can still live
to see your smile
to see your laugh
to see your eyes overflow with happiness
and let me
death, please
slowly and gradually
stop breathing.
