an ode to the hopeless, these are for you

2:09 am 9/21/20

i am so unbelievably sad that if i were to throw up,
i would throw up tears.

i want nothing more than to be 6ft shorter and cold.

i don't know how it got this bad. i really don't.

you said you wouldn't leave aislinn. but you did it twice.

you make me cry so hard i could throw up.

i wanna die i just wanna die so bad so so so bad i want nothing more.

fuck you. i despise you with every inch of my skin.

god it hurts so bad.