Athira's POV.
Habang papatagal nararamdaman ko na yung kaba, I feel like i'm gonna pass out because of the cloth I've picked.
"Ms. Saunders, your turn." the moment I heard my last name I felt my self shivered at tumayo na rin ako saka pumunta sa harap and started talking
"I've got the green, If I were given a chance to go back in the past, I'll try to change all the mistakes that I've done in the past and be a better version of myself than now and most of all I'll make my father proud." After I said this I felt myself crying because I remembered the past again but before my tears could fall I quickly hold it and went to my sit
"That's a good answer, Ms. Saunders. I hope all of you also have the same mindset of Ms. Saunders. Like try being a better version of themselves and make their parents proud." exclaimed by the staff pero diko na pinansin yung compliment na ibinigay niya after the staff talked she just continued calling random students and then Cullen whispered to me and said
"Hey, you okay? You want some water?" he said this to me in a soft and worried tone at inabutan niya ako ng tubig pero umiling lang ako and felt myself crying again and I tried to hold it but I can't so before my tears fell I quickly stand and left and that's the time I felt myself crying again. Lakad lang ako ng lakad without knowing where I'm going, I know I'm in a forest and I don't know where I'm heading to but I don't care because tonight all I want to do is cry until I felt tired and that's why I stopped saka umupo nalang sa tinatayuan ko saka umiyak ng umiyak
Why? Why did I thought of saying that? Bakit ba naisip kong kaya ko harapin yun? Bakit ba pinipilit ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko, that I can face the past again? Why am I thinking that I'm strong? that everything will be okay? Why? Why am I so fucking stupid? Bullshit. Fuck this life!
"Nakakatangina na, I-I hate this life! I hate living! I hate myself! I hate everything that revolves in me! I hate it! I fucking hate it! I fucking hate myself! Fuck this life! Fuck everyone! Fuck them! Bullshit!" after I shouted I felt myself crying more, I can also feel myself weaken because of this shit. What did I fucking do to receive this kind of treatment? What? Ang dami tanong na pumapasok sa isip ko pero ni isa wala akong sagot nakukuha
I was just crying until someone talked which made me become alerted and I quickly wipe my tears off and acted like I didn't heard him
"Hey, I don't know how to comfort someone but hating yourself won't change anything." Asked by Cullen in a worried tone and went to me and tried to help me stand but I just dodged his hands atsaka tumayo narin
"Go back to the camp site, they might already looking for you." I told him this without showing any emotions in my face and voice
"Us. You know you're also a student in our school, look, I know I don't have the place to tell you this but everything will be fine. Yes, your father is acting cold to you but I swear he still loves you, hindi lang niya pinapakita sayo because he has a reason." after he told me this it made me cry again because of the lies coming out of his mouth and I just faked a laugh
"HAHAHAHA, Reason? Love? Are you kidding me? Yes, he has his own reason but his reason is a fucking bullshit. Love? No, he doesn't. If you love someone di mo hahayaang masaktan siya dahil sa kahit anong katangahan na rason pa man yan." After I told him this his facial expression turned into a sad one, did I said something that hurt his ego? I don't care, It's better to tell him this fucking bullshits .
"Athira, Love has different meanings. Hindi lahat ganyan magmahal, some will do anything just to get the person they love back, some will hurt the person they love just to protect them, some will sacrifice everything even themselves just for the person they love and some will test the person they love to show them they are being loved ." After he told me this I was left speechless, I don't know what to say. I just stared at him and felt myself calming down. We just stared at each other's eyes like we're both talking by just staring at each other's eyes until he smiled and reached me his hand and said
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Mask
Teen FictionThis story is about a girl who is an introvert, because she has scopophobia. This phobia is a fear of being seen or stared at by others. So, she uses her mask to cover her face to go out freely without any hesitations. Until one time, she met this g...
