IN THE MATTER OF MONTHS

10. Stuck on you, like a broken record

Tine sat on the bed of the first-class cabin of the train, he had just boarded, so the train was getting ready to leave the Bangkok Station, and since his cabin was a one occupant area, he was relaxed. He put his duffel bag and Suitcase beside the small but comfortable bed, took his shoes and socks off, and proceeded to lie down, He was going to Phuket-His team's first destination-the other's were taking an early flight tomorrow morning, but Tine had decided to take the long way by taking the train, Train journeys always calmed him down, the constant whirring of the train running on the track, and looking at the trees passing by was what gave him a sense of composure. He enjoyed his elongated journeys, ever since he was young.

He sighed, taking out a book from his bag, he always went all traditional when he traveled, reading a book about whatever tickles his fancy, right now he was reading Into Thin Air, by Jon Krakauer, and although it was non-fiction, the story of the 1997 MT. Everest disaster could hook you up in seconds. He let the continuous jerks of the train lull him into a smooth tranquility. The cabin was sound repellent hence, other than the jerky movements and constant state of motion, nothing was actually disturbing him, the bright light lighting the room up. He would have to get off at Surat thani, a small town, and then take a bus to Phuket because there were no direct trains but he loved these detours, as long as he could relax on the road.

He could read for all but an hour before his thoughts distracted him until the point that he had to keep the book away, he sighed, remembering the encounter he had with Aroon Gunthithanon two days back, when he went to his father's study to tell him about his departure to Phuket, Sarawat's father was already there. Aroon had intervened asking him to stay at their guest house if he was going there, Tine had obviously declined. But the man was persistent, he had a weird inkling that Sarawat's dad was a bit off, on the outer parts he seems like a regular business man and a father, but something about him made Tine unsettled. The man was mostly smiling, but his eyes never smiled with him.He had heard good things about him from his family so he wasn't quick to judge but Tine had his guard up around him. After a series of polite declines he had agreed when his father asked him too, Mr. Gunthithanon did not want him to pay, laughing out loud and saying that he was family but that was out of question. If tine and his team stays at his guest house the company is going to cover their costs.

It was then he mentioned that Sarawat was going to be there too.

In three weeks of his return from Paris he had managed to see Sarawat Three times. All the three times he had managed to keep himself in check and not give into his thoughts, thoughts where, he wanted to talk to him, wanted to know all that happened in Sarawat's life while he was away, he wanted to know more about his new job or how it makes him feel, if he is happy? He wanted to know if he still listened to those scrubb songs Tine had once forced him to play for him, if he still made those LoFi mix tapes which Tine had accidentally discovered during a visit. He wanted to know if Sarawat still ran away from the sight of fangirls or he finally has the hang of his little fanclub, he wanted to ask him how were Man and Boss. but the thing that he wanted to ask him the most was, if he was now sleeping well or he still had trouble falling asleep? Sarawat was a night owl, and Tine detested this habit of him, he also tended to forget about meals when busy, he was basically a stubborn child in a grown Man's body.

Tine breathed out, so much for moving on Teepakorn, having feelings for the Man your sister is seeing, and not just seeing, considering to marry one day, that's just pathetic.

Tine had tried, reminding himself that Sarawat was a taken man now, and his own sister was with him, but no matter how hard he tried the guilt would just not enter his heart, he felt so bad for not feeling guilty but it was like he couldn't find it in himself to feel sorry for loving Sarawat, that was one of the best things that has happened to him and he was forever thankful despite the heartbreak it brought.