Blind // H.S.

five

(Authors Note: ) Please be sure to listen to the song while you read! I feel like it helps set the tone and vibes for this chapter!!

"Miles where is this coming from?" I plead with him. "I just want some kind of logical answer from you."

"I told you Cha, I'm so sick of this... I want to see you. I miss you. I miss us..." he trails off.

We sit in an abundance of silence, nothing but the occasional sound of a sniffle or exhale.

I shatter it with a quiet "I miss you too, Mi but ,"

He cuts me off with "No more buts, come on we are more than that. Just give me one more chance, Charlie. I swear to you this time it's different. I'm different. I'm not the same Miles I swear to you..."

Every time.

He says this every single time.

"Miles we've been here a million times before. Same story and same promises you've made and broken just the same. Left me with absolutely no explanations. Treated me like I meant nothing, like actual shit" my voice begins to rise and my tone becomes more aggressive. Harsher then I have ever used with him before.

I pause for another moment before mustering up the courage to say "I deserve more than this, Miles. I deserve more than you..."

I feel myself jump as my eyes open quickly. I stare at the ceiling for a moment, inhaling deeply to calm the anxiety that is coursing through my body.

I glance to the neon green numbers on my nightstand and they read 3:32 am. I know that sleep is out of the question at this point, considering my heart is still racing and I feel like I have enough adrenaline to run a freaking marathon at the moment. Plus I have to be up in a few hours for work, so I might as well go ahead and start my day.

I climb out of bed and head for my kitchen. I click on the coffee pot and pop a slice of bread in the toaster and their sweet aromas begin to fill my studio apartment. While I wait for my breakfast I make my way to my giant window, which is honestly what sold this tiny apartment for me, and gaze at the flashing lights of the city.

There is something comforting to me about looking out and seeing thousands of lights still on in the city that truly never sleeps. Just knowing that I am not awake and alone at this ungodly hour of day gives me a strange sense of peace. I sometimes wonder about the lights, I like to think of each light that I see as a different story. Maybe one of the lights is having the best day of their lives, better than they could have ever imagined it to be. Maybe they landed their dream job, or maybe they met the love of their life. And maybe another light is sad, grieving the loss of a loved one or just trying to figure out who they are. The lights fascinate me and confuse me, but in the most inspiring way. I wonder if people ever look at my light and wonder my story.

I hear my toast pop up so I head back to the kitchen. I smother the bread in butter and grab my favorite coffee mug and pour myself a hot cup of joe and splash some almond milk to dilute the bitterness. I gather my breakfast and carry it to my couch where I can cover myself in blankets and gaze at the city a little more.

As I devour my breakfast I start to mindlessly run through the coming weeks schedule in my head.

I know the other intern starts today, so I'm excited to meet someone new. I am still shadowing Maggie this week so I will be attending all of her meetings with her again this week if I had to guess. I am working in the marketing department on Wednesday, learning the best strategies to get music to the right people and get the fans excited. I know Harry has another meeting this week and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't bursting to see him again. Seeing him yesterday at the coffee shop, out of the office and in a "normal" setting, was something that took me a little by surprise. He's different than I thought, but not in a bad way. A great way actually. Refreshing.

Upon first meeting him I found him shy and slightly mysterious. Very hard to approach and intimidating. It could just be the fact that I was slightly starstruck by him and the fact that he was literally one of the most famous (and not to mention most handsome) people who I have been in the same room as, but beside the point. Despite all my preconceptions he's quite personable and easy going. A sweetheart you could even say. I know I've only spent like 30 minutes with him but he truly was someone I have found myself completely infatuated with, and I couldn't really tell you why. 

I finish my breakfast and place my dishes on the small table in front of me. I sit back and wrap myself again in the cozy throw blankets on my couch. I gaze out at the twinkling lights of the city once more and write stories in my head for the lights in the city below.

(Authors Note: )

HI LOVEYS!

So this is a short (IM SORRY) kinda filler chapter for you guys to get a little more insight on Charlie and get to see and know her on a deeper level. Kinda see where her mind is at.

This song has always been one I wanted to use in a story, I love the concept of seeing the New York City lights as stars, I have always thought when I was in the city it looked like a beautiful sky of stars when you looked at the skyline!

I will probably have another update coming in the next few days, so be sure to stay on the lookout for that!

All my love to all of youuuuu xx