Sugar, Spice, and Everything in Mind

The Last Message Received

The Last Message Received (Her Side)

ONE of the most amazing feeling you can ever felt is, when the person you love, loves you back.

Indeed.

Because I didn’t expect him to love me, the way I do. Besides, I’m no match with other girls that surrounds him. I’m just a nobody trying to fit in. Trying to survive to this cruel society.

But then, he noticed me. In the ocean of pretty girls, he noticed the feeling I always hide from everyone because I can’t tell it. They would just laugh at my face if I did so. It’s better that I’m the only one who knows it.

I remember our first encounter where it started all, it was Tuesday afternoon back then. We had to practice the dance we will perform for our PE class. Everyone already has a partner except me. I am too shy to ask someone to be my partner, I just can’t approach someone. So, I just sit there and watch them since everyone is already in pair, but then, before they can start, someone came in— very late. And it was him. He was wearing his mischievous smile while shaking his head because his friends are teasing him for being late for the nth time.

And then, suddenly......

“May partner ka na ba? Partner na lang tayo. Tara.” I didn’t expect him to say those words nor pops in front me then grab my hand without even hearing my answer.

For you, maybe, it's rude. But for me? It's a blessing.

Sumunod na lang ako sa kanya at hinayaang maging partner niya. Hindi na rin naman ako nagsalita dahil sobra akong nahihiya. Ni hindi nga ako makatingin sa kanya ng maayos sa mata noong mag-sayaw na kami, though dinadaldal niya ako, puro tango at iling lang ako, dahil sa sobrang kaba kong magkamali o may magawang ikakainis niya. Also, I don’t want him to know that I have feelings for him. I just want to make sure that he didn’t feel my nervousness and how fast my heart beat when he touched my waist and hold my sweaty hand.

I can feel the butterflies in my stomach as we dance to the beat of the music.

Hanggang sa matapos ang practice at lahat ay nagsi-alisan na para umuwi. Sobrang saya ko nung araw na iyon. I didn’t expect that the person I like danced me— I mean, naging partner ko sa sayaw na iyon. It’s very surreal. It feels like a dream come true. But like Cinderella, kailangan na niyang gumising sa magandang panaginip na iyon.

Hindi siya ang naging partner ko nung pinerform na namin siya. Hinila kasi siya ng isa sa mga babaeng nagkakagusto sa kanya at pinagpalit kami ng partner. Super awkward tuloy ako doon sa partner ko at muntik pa kaming magkamali-mali. Pero nung gabing iyon, I unexpectedly received a message from him. Telling me how sorry he was because of sudden change of partners. I told him that it’s fine and no big deal.

And you will not believe me what happened next. Kahit ako naman di makapaniwalang nag-usap pa kami. Our conversation didn't end there. We talked like we know each other for a very long time— but only in messages. Hindi ko talaga kayang kausapin siya sa personal noon. Pakiramdam ko kasi ay may masasabi akong masama or something na magpapa-turn off sa kanya. Sinubukan naman niya akong kausapin sa personal gaya kapag sa messages which gumana naman. That’s one of his personality I really like— consistent and true to his words unlike other boys na sa una lang magaling. And each day na nagkakausap at nagkakasama kami, mas lumalalim yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

I will never ask for too much anymore. Kung hanggang dito na lang kami, then hanggang dito lang. Pero, siguro nga ay swerte ako. One day, he confessed his feelings and I gladly accepted it.

I might not be one of those Disney Princesses, but I felt like I am one of them because my dreams came true.

We are one of those couples na may ups and downs ang relasyon.