X Reader Imagines

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I have 2 voices. Well... No.
I have 2 best best best friends. But the difference between them and my other friends is that...
1. They're alway there, no matter what.
2. I usually know how they're feeling.
3. Most people would say they're imaginary.
That would mean 2 thirds of me is imaginary. They are parts of me. Without them I would be emotionless. I think they've been with me since I was born but I've only noticed them around last year. There's a boy and a girl. The boy's name is Jerry Nomed and the girls name is Emily Legna. They are polar opposites, but I guess that's why they like each other. Oh yeah, they're dating. They fight a lot though, and then Jerry gets pissed and disappears somewhere. Emily usually stays and comforts me, because I hate when they fight. On rare occasions Emily will go and Jerry stays but only on rare occasions.

Emily is super happy, like the reincarnation of an angel, and she tries to make me feel good about myself. But me, being the idiot I am, always listens to Jerry or the actual voice in my head. Jerry hates everything and everyone, except Emily and usually me. He's full of so much sadness and anger that it's filling him up to the brim.

On Friday, the Friday of my schools Talent Quest, Emily had tried to cheer me up but it didn't work. She then got made at Jerry because he wasn't doing anything. Now when Emily gets made it is terrifying. She has a look in her eyes like she wants to kill someone. But thankfully, it's rare for Emily to get mad. But that day she got mad. While I was hiding behind my desk, Emily was yelling at Jerry and telling him that me and her would be better of without him. Not gonna lie, it made me sad. Then Emily stomped out of the classroom and didn't come back. I felt really bad for Jerry. Because, technically, it was my fault. So I sat next to him, he was slumped on the ground, and hugged him. We sat like that for a few minutes before I heard my class coming back. I gave him a little kiss on the cheek and stood up. He gave me a smile when I went back to my seat. Not a pity smile, or a flirty smile, or a sad smile or even a fake smile. It was a real smile. I felt really happy but then the voice in my head said 'You're a failure. You failed at singing. You are nothing...' That ruined my mood.

Sometimes things happens between Jerry, Emily and I and they both leave. After that happens all I feel is guilt. Overwhelming waves of guilt, wave after wave after wave. I feel like I'm drowning but... It's like I have to decide whether to drown with Jerry or swim to safety with Emily. But I could never pick between the two.

Last year, when Emily had left because Jerry had told her that she had bad taste in guys (befor they were dating), I was on the oval with Jerry. He was ranting to me about how Emily is so picky, when I saw Justice (my crush) and Caeden (my best friend) running around. I waited until Caeden stopped for a break even though Justice kept running. I jogged up to Caeden, Jerry sulking behind me, and scared him from behind. Caeden turned around and smiled, looking genuinely happy to see me. I sighed as Justice came back and asked "are you trying to harass my friend?'
I was like, 'No, and he's my friend too.'
Then Justice took it a step too far and said 'well, he would be better if you went and killed yourself. We all would.' Now, that HURT. I turned around, feeling tears well up in my eyes, and I ran away. Before I got to far I heard Justice yell 'Fuck you, Alex!' I ran to the girls bathroom and had a literal mental breakdown. I remember Jerry saying something like 'he's a jerk' or 'he doesn't deserve to make you cry.' See! Jerry CAN be sweet! I think I replayed back saying, 'It wasn't just Justice. Caeden didn't care!' At that time I had been friends with Caeden for little over 4 years, so when he didn't care about someone saying that to me, it obviously hurt like hell.

So to restate the topic, I have 2 best friends who sometimes possess me. But I would be nothing without them.