You cannot please anyone. You are born different. Upon staying here in the hospital for almost two weeks now, marami ang nurse na napikon sa ugali ko. Ang daming nagrereklamo sa kaartehan at kademonyohan ko.
Hmp. Mabait na nga ako e.
I rolled my eyes when Nurse Harry entered my room bringing a tray of syringe with my medicine in it. He was the nurse who told me about Nahem and every evening up to early morning ang duty niya.
"Ano na naman yan?" Masungit kong tanong at nginuso ang tray na hawak niya kahit alam ko naman talaga na gamot.
"Alam mo naman kung ano 'to, isang linggo mahigit ka na dito," Suplado niyang sagot.
Ngumuso ako, "Eh kasi sabi mo pupunta tayo kay Nahem pero bakit ang tagal."
I saw him last time pero silip lang ang nagawa ko, tapos sa malayo pa. Hindi ko masyadong natitigan ang mukha niya pero I'm pretty sure that he is my Nahem. I cried at that time and sadly my brother didn't let me go out of my room after that.
"Under observation pa nga siya, ang kulit mo." He started to plunge the medicine on my hose and I grunted when I felt it sting on my veins.
I've been getting this freaking medicine since last week and every shot was so painful. Noong una ay umiiyak ako pero ngayon hindi na, madalas din ilipat ang dextrose ko dahil madaling mamaga at magkapasa ang balat ko.
"Kahit silip lang? Wala naman si Kuya, saka gabi na." Pamimilit ko matapos niyang itusok ang gamot.
"Malalagot ako, iba nalang hilingin mo." Humalukipkip siya at umupo sa couch na katabi ng bed ko. Mukhang ako ang last niyang patient.
Pinagdaop ko ang palad ko at humarap sa kanya, "Please Harry? One time lang?" I pleaded.
He sighed heavily then went out of my room, ang bastos talaga ni Harry, akala mo sinong mabait nung una e demonyo rin pala. I fixed my oxygen tube before lying flat on my hospital bed.
I never imagined that my life would be like this, being diagnosed with a heart disease is not my dream. Being left alone isn't in my mind. Blue and Garreth joined Dyno's circle. Apparently Dyno told them a different story pero inamin niya sa brother ko. My brother decided not to make the problem bigger, he just ditched them.
I should be at the bar and having fun right now, living my life to the fullest pero eto ako.
I almost jumped out of bed when the door opened, niluwa niyon si Harry na may dalang wheelchair at sambakol ang mukha.
"Thank you Harry!" I cheered. He gestured me to lower my voice down. Napatakip ako sa bibig ko at dahan dahang umupo.
He helped me to sit then he changed my oxygen tank to the small ones para hindi siya mahirapan.
Dahan dahan niyang initulak palabas ang wheelchair ko, ibang daan ang pinuntahan namin. Iyong walang nurse station para hindi nila ako makita. I giggled when we reached the floor where Nahem's room was located.
"Eto na ba 'yon?" I asked, pointing a door with a sign outisde.
My lips protruded when I realized it indicates "Do not enter without permission."
Ngumisi ako nang maalalang nurse nga pala ang kasama ko. Sorry Harry, it might cause you trouble but I really want to see Nahem.
We entered his room silently, Harry locked the door before pushing my chair near to Nahem's bed then he sat on the couch maybe to give us space? My eyes teared up when I finally got close to him.
