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coma-part one

lukes p.o.v

"calum, you are never going to understand how horrible i feel. i should have never pressured you to do anything that you did not want to do! its all my fault that you are here, laying in a hospital bed, in a coma. but you need to listen to me man! its been months and you haven't so much as fluttered your eye lids. they are threatening to take you off the life support. they don't think that you are going to last much longer, but i dont give to fucks about what they say. you are my best friends and i know that you are not going to give up. i know that any second now, you are going to wake up and quite possibly hate me forever, but i don't care. all i care about is knowing that it was not my fault that my best friend dies. you mean the world to me cal, like the whole entire world. i wouldn't be who i am today if it weren't for you! calum, i honestly owe you for my entire career and i would do anything to switch places with you right now. i am the idiot who should be laying in this bed, dying! mate, youre more then just my best friend. you are the coolest and most supportive people i have the honour of knowing. you're my brother calum. you're my big brother and i need you calum. you cant fucking leave me and have me thinking that you hate me. please, wake up and tell me that you forgive me. i miss waking up and getting calum hugs. fuck man, i really miss your cuddles. ashton and mikey are good at it, but there will never be anyone that would be able to take your fucking place! i need you to fight. and if you're not going to fight for me, the fight for your mum. and mali. they need you cally. you're mum looks so lost and i think she has been so sweet to me! she knows that you got into this accident cause i am a fuck up! she is treating me like i am broken. but i'm not the broken one here cal. you're broken, and its my fault. i'm not allowed to be broken until you have decided that there is no more fight in you, that you want it all to end. but please, do everyone a favour and fight that ass of yours off. i love you calum, i know that i might not have shown it or said it often enough but i really do love you. mate, please! pull through and kick my ass so that i know everything can be alright between us. i need you calum"

tomorrows my birthday guys. turning 16 on january 16th. anyway hope you liked this part, and i will have the next few up soon!! love you!!

Jessica💕😘