Emo Soulmate AUs

Pretending's so comfortable - Peterick

For most, when you meet your soulmate for the first time, the world becomes bright and full of colour.  It's an almost unreal experience, overwhelming with its sudden brightness.  Unfortunately, this isn't the case for everyone.  There are only a few people who are forced to face such a harsh reality.   No matter where they go or who they meet, they will live in black and white their whole life.  People like this are referred to as 'the colour blind'.

Pete was one of these people. Or at least he thought he was.

Three years ago he had met Patrick - the kindest, gentlest, most perfect guy he had ever met who had flung himself at him expressing his excitement in every way he could.  However, Pete knew immediately that something was wrong, there was no revelation, no colour, nothing.   So he did the only thing he could think of and pretended.

Patrick curled up into Pete's side, an old episode of Call the Midwife playing on the telly and a packet of chocolate digestives sat on the coffee table.  All in all, it was a regular Saturday night.   Nothing was out of the ordinary for the two boys, nothing was special about that particular Saturday night, not yet at least.

"Hey Panda," Patrick spoke up as the episode ended, reaching out to grab the TV remote and press pause.

"Yes Pat?" Pete asked, readjusting his position on the couch to be facing more in Patrick's direction.

"I love you," Patrick stated boldly, not an ounce of hesitation in his voice.

Fear coursing through his veins, Pete froze up.  This was the first time either of them said those three words and it scared him.  He didn't feel ready to say them back, he wasn't sure he would ever feel ready to say them back.   Sure, he felt something for the younger boy, but he wasn't even sure if it was actually possible fall in love with someone who isn't necessarily your soulmate.

"I love you too," he replied calmly, Patrick resting back against Pete's chest contently.

However, Pete knew this wouldn't last forever.  One day Patrick would find out that Pete was a colour blind and hate him even more because he lied to him about it.  He was already in way too deep to stop the inevitable from happening.  But why did pretending have to be so comfortable?

This is a short part 1!!  I'm currently writing a part 2!  Be aware that's it's a bit of a sad one.  I didn't intend to write a sad one but I was really inspired to write this one.  There's something heartbreakingly beautiful about the soulmate aus where something goes wrong, don't you think?  Just me?  Okay...  Thought so.

I'm writing some more happy and wholesome ones as well, I was just hyperaware I haven't updated in a little while :)