𝐰𝐞𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 - 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐦

𝐮𝐧𝐢 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐰𝐨

i have my welcome week for uni tomorrow! i'm so excited but also a tiny bit nervous. it's natural i suppose.

i'm a little bit emotional for a few reasons. i think it finally hit me today (after like 6 months) that i'm done with high school and all of my friends are moving on with their lives. most of them are at the same uni as me anyway aha.

another reason is because i worked so hard to get to where i am and now my dream is finally happening.

i'm going to be studying primary education. i've wanted to be a primary school teacher since i was about eight. it was that or nursing and my mum told me not to be a nurse because she's one and she told me i'd be better off as a teacher lol.

i've always been a conscientious pupil. i worked hard and always tried my best. i'm definitely more academic but i still had to work for it.

in my third year of high school, i was around 13 or 14, i came down with really bad headaches. i would be in bed for days on end and even on the good days, i still head a headache but i had to go to school and work through it. i had a constant headache for months.

i missed a lot of school, tried out lots of different medications, had blood tests, even an mri to make sure that i didn't have a brain tumour. looking back on it, it was a scary time for me and i have no idea how i coped the way i did.

eventually, things started to get better. they put my headaches down to stress although i'm not entirely convinced that's what it was. i started on new medication which really helped and i went back to school.

i missed loads of work but luckily i had a year to make up the work before i had exams.

or so i thought.

i had to have an operation. it was totally unrelated to the headaches. it was on my lower back (kind of. i find it a bit embarrassing so i try not to talk about what it was too much) so although it was small, i couldn't actually sit properly for weeks.

eventually, i got back to school.

i had to have maths tutors, go to loads of revision classes and when i came out of my first set of exams with 5 As, a B and a C, i was more than proud of myself.

i had to keep battling them but i managed to get myself an unconditional offer to my top choice university and now i'm starting tomorrow.

i still have certain triggers (tiredness, stress, too much sugar, concentrating for long periods of time, dehydration etc) but i made it and i'm so proud of myself.

this might be really really cheesy but all of my hard work paid off and tomorrow marks the start of my new journey and i am so beyond excited for it!

lots of love, e x