Hello Stranger,
You barely knew
who I was.
You didn't even call
me by my name.
It was suppose to
be meaningless
and you followed
through with that.
I'm sorry for
breaking your rules.
You wanted me
for the feeling-
not to keep. I
should've known that.
"Stop playing stupid."
Of course I knew
what was going to
happen.
But still, a part
of me wanted to believe
that you were different.
A part of me wanted
to be with you
for more than a
single night.
I wanted you
to stay until daylight,
but that's asking for
too much, right?
"I can't romanticize
the idea of us."
Your true
colours radiated
way before your car
pulled over at midnight
to pick me up.
"It all felt so
familiar yet so foreign."
Why is it that when
I finally forgave
myself for surrendering
to your desires,
you decide to love me?
Why is it that you're
shedding tears
in hopes that
I'll be with you?
I want you to be okay,
but I no longer want to
play the lead role
in your game that was
only meant to have
one winner.
I can still feel
your hands gripping
my body as if tomorrow
wasn't coming.
I can still feel
myself being lost in
ecstasy despite the
pain I felt.
tears filled my
eyes to the brim,
yet no comfort
came from you.
How can I love you
when all you've
taught me is how to
hate myself for
wanting to be
with you momentarily?
"A few hours isn't
enough to be certain
that you can keep me
for a lifetime."
Walking away wasn't
out of ill will.
I never once wanted
to hurt you.
I walked away to save you
from making the biggest
mistake of your life.
The way you
called me
Beautiful put
me in a state of
ecstasy.
The way you
kissed me was
Addicting.
But that's all
it was to you.
"Words and actions."
So please, don't be
offended when I tell
you I don't understand.
Like you said;
it's all just words
and actions.
Just like how
all I saw out of you
was sweaty eyes and
a cup of desperation.
You never loved me.
You just loved the way
I made you feel.
You never gave
a damn that
I felt suffocated
by my feelings.
"This is the pilot
episode of our drama
that never aired"
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You Look Like Yourself (Poetry)
Poetry"I want to go beyond words I dread to speak, messages I fear to send and realities I refuse to face. " -j.c (Updates are daily. Once or twice a day)
