Depressing Short Stories

Just thoughts, you know. (Dear Darling)

PART ONE

Food. Isn't that something almost everyone enjoys and loves so much? To think a world without food is just impossible. Food is everything; we need food. It's something that is so important to us and something we can't live without.

Water. This seems less important to you when compared to food right? Food is always on your mind but water? Not so much unless you're thirsty. You don't treasure water as much as you treasure food. Water is simply not that important but you can't survive days without water although you can go for days without food.

Air or oxygen. You don't think about this so often. You don't go, "What air am I breathing now?" but you do ask, "What am I having for dinner?" People cut down trees without a second thought about how it decreases the amount of oxygen we have. People are even willing to trade oxygen for internet. This is less important compared to water.

The truth is the most important to us should be oxygen or air. Not food. Food should be our less concern but is it? We can't go minutes without oxygen but still it isn't as important to us as food. I always ask myself, why is this so?

Then I realized. Air or oxygen, whichever you prefer, will always be there. We don't have to look for it, it's everywhere. Food on the other hand, we have to buy it. Water too. We are so used to using oxygen that we don't think of how much it's worth.

This is such a good metaphor for people. Those who are always there for you, always at your side; they're hardly on your mind compared to someone who doesn't even acknowledges your existent. I know people who would give up their boyfriend for a celebrity.

That is just like how much we value food over oxygen. It hurts to know that humans hardly notice this things. We just take things for granted and regret our decisions when we face the consequences.

For example, we mercilessly cut down trees. When one day, there's not enough oxygen for all we'll be regretting our decision. Regretting our decision for taking oxygen for granted. We'll regret all we want but it won't change anything.

Just like when you choose someone who ignores you over someone who acknowledges you.

PART TWO

Risks. If we don't take them, we won't meet new people or discover new things. We won't change; we'll be the same forever. We won't experience anything at all because we're too scared to die or too scared to lose.

For example, Adam and Eve. Eve took a huge risk and look at how it changed things. If she never took the risk, everything would've been the same forever. None of us would be here and nobody would feel or discover anything. (A/N: I'm sorry to point this out but this is my believe.)

Change is a must and therefore so are risks. So take the risk because the risk means a change.

PART THREE

Everyday, before I close my eyes and let myself slip into another dimension, I think about how I affected someone's live today. Next, I think about how someone affected my life, which is always none.

Does anybody actually cares for me? Not because they have to but because they want to. Does anybody likes me for who I am and not because of my looks or achievements? Have I been good enough for everybody? Did I apologies and forgave those who have trespassed me?

Is there anybody like me? Who will understand me? Will anybody try to understand me? Will I let them? Am I burden to others? Do people enjoy my company? Would anyone shirk away when I take off this addicting mask?

Is there anybody for me? Will I ever be loved when I have given too much love? When can I get all this feelings out? Will I ever be myself again after wearing this mask for too long? Am I selfish for being so desperate?

Does anybody care that I shiver every night and I can't bare to think of anything anymore? Does anybody notice how my hands will shake when I write? Have somebody seen me quiver? Do I know who I am anymore?

I have so many questions that are unanswered. I have so many secrets to hide. I have too many masks that I can't find my real self anymore. I have too many expectations that I hide behind them, using them as an excuse.

I can't do this anymore. Do I even want to do this?

PART FOUR

When you care for someone, you give them the opportunity to hurt you. That's why you don't care, they don't want it anyways.

You shall never have your own voice, opinions. Just be that plain obidient girl who doesn't do anything wrong and will never complain, doesn't have a backbone. That's the girl you want right?

You act like you're perfect. You're never wrong. When I voice out my opinions about everything being my fault, it is true. Because when I did that it is my fault for doing so yeah?

I don't want to care or feel anymore. It isn't worth it.

I wished I listen to my younger self, the one before 8, to kill myself by jumping of the stairs. I should have listen. If I did, I wouldn't be suffering now and no one will remember me anyways. No one cares like it said.

"To love is to destroy and be loved is to be the one destroyed." -Cassandra Clare. It is true. Never love or care for anyone. Just do what you're suppose to do. Be a heartless robot.

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A/N: Yeah we're back to this again. TWO UPDATES IN A ROW! YAY. maybe. anyway I hoped you listened to the song inserted especially when you've read part three, assuming you did.

Enjoy!