Depressing Short Stories

Lose My Mind

"It's just when I'm with you I lose my mind."

Just doodles in an English textbook.

                                .beginning.

Can someone explain why that when I'm around him I just lose my mind. 

I lose control over my soul.

I can't think straight when I'm with him.

I make silly mistakes and act all fake.

All in hopes he'll return the same feelings.

To be honest, he keeps me sane.

                                .middle.

Everyday, I'll try to avoid him.

So that these feelings will fly away.

But he'll keep coming, finding his way towards me.

It pisses me off that I'm feeling this way.

Please, may these feelings disappear with the wind today.

For I can't bear a stay another day.

                                .filler.

If only I didn't find myself looking at him.

If only I hid my feelings from him.

If only I've never met him.

I wouldn't be suffering.

                                .pause.

A pause button would be handy during this time of my life.

To pause and go back to stop myself from acting fake.

For it is something I despise.

I hate pretending to be someone whom you'll like.

Because I'll never be good enough for you.

                                .losing.

You caught me staring which was why you came over.

I'm losing an internal battle with myself.

I think that it's me and you against the universe.

When in reality, its you and me against myself.

                                .end.

Just give me a day, to be with you.

To be your everything.

To be someone you treasure the most.

To be loved by you.

For there is no one else I would prefer.

Just one day or even one night.

One night to belong to you completely.

But in the day we'll go our separate ways.

Might never see each other again.

And I'll see my heart breaking and endure the pain.