Skyrim One-shots and Scenarios

Brynjolf x Depressed!Reader (smut)

A/N- okay i haven't posted in forever BUT i'm almost at 1k reads! i literally love you sm!! also i'm about throw school out the window so if anyone wants to join me you're welcome to do so. also someone play among us with me bc i really like that game.

warnings- smut. this one is super gentle and sweet. THIS MAY HAVE TYPOS. i got lazy when reading over it. sorry not sorry :))

I turned over in the bed slightly to look at Brynjolf, who had finally fallen asleep. I carefully slid out of his loving embrace and out of the bed. I thankfully managed to not wake him up in the process. I slid my shoes on quietly and slipped out the door and outside of our shared home, Honeyside. I sat down on the back porch and put my legs over the edge.

I took a deep breath. I'd been doing this awhile, pretending to be asleep so Brynjolf would fall asleep. He never let himself sleep before me. Then I would come out here and be by myself for the most of the night. So far, he hasn't noticed much. Except that I've been more tired than usual. We moved in together after we killed Mercer Frey, the previous guild master. He started spending the night with me and eventually he asked to move in permanently.

There was something about being stabbed and then trying to kill the person that stabbed you that doesn't let me sleep at night. Especially when they keep turning themselves invisible. I trusted him, and he completely stabbed me in the back. Literally.

What made it worse was the fact that after he died, I thought I was going to drown. That really has messed me up. I've developed a slight fear of water. I don't go swimming anymore, I only use water to bathe.

Every time I close my eyes, I see his face. Sleep hasn't really been an option lately. I have too many nightmares. I decided to not sleep unless I absolutely needed to. And I haven't told Brynjolf yet either.

I haven't told him because after I was given the new position as Guild Master, I didn't want to let him down. He seemed pretty upset about Mercer's betrayal, and I didn't want to add more onto his worries. He's been kind enough to do most of my work for me. He knows I don't like to talk about stuff like this, so he hasn't really asked.

"Lass?"

I jumped and grabbed onto the piece of wood just above my head to keep me from falling into the water below.

Brynjolf rushed over to me immediately and grabbed my waist to pull me back, "By the eight, I thought you were going to fall into the water! You've got to be more careful. What are you even doing out-"

He paused with his words once he saw my facial expression, "Hey, what's going on?"

I wasn't trying to appear weak in front on him, but I couldn't help it. I almost fell into the water below me, and it was really freaking me out. I can't even begin to imagine what my face looked like. Probably horrified, and I could feel my eyes start to form tears.

"Lass, it's okay. I didn't mean to scare you," He picked me up bridal style and took me back inside. The whole time I had my face in his shirt, probably making it wet from my tears, which had now started to fall.

He gently placed me on the bed and I sat up as he took my shoes off.

"Y/N, what's going on?" He said as he sat down.

"It's nothing. I'm fine." I said through sniffles.

"Nothing? You're crying right now because you almost fell into the water outside. You've been extremely jumpy lately. I just want to know what's going on, my love."

He went over to his side of the bed a cuddled me in his arms. He began gently stroking my hair as I attempted to calm down.

"You can talk to me, Lass. You know that."