True Friends

Oneshot- Swsh,ocxhop

As a preface I had a joke with someone else and their trainersona, my trainersona, and hop in the end it involved my trainersona and Hop in a joke relationship, jut my trainersona after the months of pet names fell h a r d so enjoy this~
Also tringer warning for angst and the reference of a deadname but no mention of the deadname

3rd Person POV

A couple months after Cass and Hop had gotten together as a joke and Hop going along since he did have a small crush on Cass decided to bring up a conversation that he wanted to avoid but couldn't, not anymore at least.

"Hey Cass?" Hop said asking the blue haired boy noticing his eye colors change to a sort of pastel yellow before they went back to their normal sage and navy blue with a smile across his face. Those Hop's face had more of a serious look to it.

"W-whats wrong hon?" Cass asked his anxiety raising by the second wondering what he did, even though he didn't do aanything wrong, it was a habit he forced himself into. He had fallen on the floor because he what hanging off the couch upside down and bored.

Hop let out a heavy sigh when he heard hon come from Cass's lips. He loved it but it would only make what he wanted to do harder. "No more pet names," Hop had gotten out.

"Wha, why?" Cass asked completely confused by his significant other's change towards the pet names.

"It's only gonna make what I wanna say harder," Hop said.

Cass's fear was only strengthened by that sentence, he couldn't help but jump to conclusions. "D-do you no-ot love me?" He asked trying to keep his voice from breaking but failing.

Hop was quiet for a second before looking into Cass's eyes unable to say the words himself.

Cass was unmoving his hand over his mouth tears now rolling down his checks. He couldn't move as if his body had been carved from stone and that if he were to move he'd only break more.

"I- oh how can I say this without sounding so cliche-?" Hop muttered to himself. He was hoping that this would be easy that he could just say, 'Hey I don't feel like you don't truly love me and I am not really emotionally ready for a relationship at the moment.' And that Cass would understand and be not surprised by this.

"I- I uh- I" Cass was sputtering out unable to complete a sentence.

"Look if anything don't blame this on yourself I'm personally and emotionally unavaliabe for a-" Hop was cut off by a distraught Cass wanting to keep this relationship possibly only making it worse for him.

"I- I can change, do you want me to change because I will please just, just tell me what to change!" Cass was saying  in a desprate attempt to keep a romantic relationship alive, as this was the first time he truely felt loved in a romantic sense. He wanted to keep the relationship because he was scared that he would be unable to be romantically loved again.

"Cass-" Hop said trying to get Cass to calm down but it did nothing he was still a blubbering mess. He was going to do something that would make him feel bad knowing Cass's past. "CASS!" He said loud and through gritted teeth. It wasn't as bad as what he had to face but it still triggered him slightly as Cass's parents would deadname him the same way Hop just did to chastise him for something small.

"Look Cass I'm personally and emotionally unavaliable for a romantic relationship. It's me in this relationship and I don't think I'm really ready for a relationship," Hop had explained.

Cass stood up silently and exited the house, "C-cass?" Hop asked worried and confused. As soon as Cass's foot was outside he bolted past his own house in the town of Postwicke and into the Slumbering Weald.

Hop outreached his arm to Cass but retracted it. He knew he was the reason that Cass was feeling this way. Though he knew it would be better for Cass to deal with this himself and that Cass was stronger than Hop when it came to pokemon so any pokemon encountered in the Slumbering Weild would be not problem for him. He just wish that the conversation could've gone better.

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