Broken (completed)

-Chapter Twenty-

**** Caution contains self-harm, It may be a trigger****

Two Months have gone by, I don't leave me room. Everyone has tried, Kirsten is staying in the guest room until my 'heart has healed' so she said. Bes has called up, angry at the fact I've cancelled our holiday fun over a boy. I can't handle it anymore as I escape my room and run. I run and run not knowing where I am going. My feet know though, soon I come to where my heart wanted to be. "Mommy" I sit, "I wish you were here to tell me what to do?, "how to make it stop hurting, everyone keeps tell me. I will live, I will get over it eventually, that I will move on and forget him"

I sigh, "but, I don't know if I can, what do I do mommy?". I sit for a little while longer. "Maddison, is that you?", I turn my head, "Matty, what are you doing here?", "oh, umm, my father passed away last year, I'm just checking on things, you?", "oh, I'm sorry, I'm here with my mom.", he smiles. "It's fine everything ok?", "just peachy" I sniffle. "Well that party is on tonight if you wanted to come?, all you can drink, get company that won't ask questions" he smiles. "Ok, I've got to get changed, want to walk me home first", "sure" I stand. "goodbye mom". I turn and head back home.

We get the front door before it flings open "Maddison there you are! We were so worried about, one second you're in your room the next you're nowhere to be seen" dad says panicky. "I just wanted to clear my head, Dad you remember Josh's friend Matty", "Yes, of course how are you?". Matty shakes his hand "good thank yourself?" he ignores Matty. "Well I'm heading back upstairs to get ready, come in make yourself comfortable" I smile at Matty and walk upstairs, "where are you going?" dad questions carefully. "Matty invited me to a party, is it ok if I go?", "yes!, of course go, have fun sweetheart" dad says shocked I was getting out of the house. "Hey dad, I'm sorry I left without telling anyone where I was going".

He walks over and embraces me and kisses my forehead. "That's ok, sweetheart, I'm just happy you're getting out of the house" he laughs a little. I go through my closest trying to find something to wear. I go with a mid-thigh length black tight Criss cross dress, with silver pumps, a black clutch, sliver earrings and a black ring. I leave my hair down and put heavy makeup on with red lips.

I shrug and head down stairs "OH HELL, NO GET BACK UPSTAIRS AND CHANGE NOW" Noah roars. I laugh, "umm, how about... NO". I grab Matty's hand. "let's go" we walk out. "Maddi, you can't be serious?" Noah says from behind me. "Yes Noah, I am serious, now goodbye I have a party to go to", "you know what, I might come, thanks for the invite Matty" Noah scoffs. "Whatever, hurry up" I get in Noah's car as does Matty. Noah walks over to the driver's side.

He gets in and slams the door. Soon enough we reach the party. I get out and grab Matty's hand walking into the party, Matty put my hand on his shoulder as he guides me to the kitchen. Noah following behind. "I think tonight is a tequila night!" Matty gets the shots glasses out and pours 6 shots, hands two to me, offers two to Noah who shakes his head, "I'll be driving her home" he growls. So he hands me the other and we shot all three then he lines up another three each and we do them .

Noah grabs my arm, "Maddi, slow down" he warns. I ignore him and do another 3, that's nine shots all up and they kick in. I grab a beer and head outside I freeze in my spot. His brown eyes lock with mine my knee's go weak, I can feel tears threatening to explode out of my eyes. I take a good look at him his eyes are all puffy and red, he isn't smiling so I know he isn't happy I'm here. He stand and walks over to me. But he doesn't stop he just keeps walking. As he walks past I see tears on his face.

"What, that's it" I scoff, 'damn you alcohol'. He freezes. "You're not even going to tell me you're sorry for breaking me". He turns, "Looks like you're doing just fine without me" he scoffs. ....Smack.... my hand starts to sting. Talon turns his face back around and glares. "crap, Maddi" Matty runs over "you ok babe?" he asks. "Babe? I see it didn't take you long to jump into bed with someone else" ....Smack.... 'crap' now my hand hurts again. "Babe, come lets go dance".