Ignored (Dark Logan x Remus)

Staying Close

(TW: Remus, Intrustive thoughts, mention of rape)
*Remus POV*

I despised that they forgot about Logie. 'hit them, you know you want to, you have a mace you can summon right now'... Maybe that isn't the worst idea I've had this week... I hear the crack as my neck snaps to the side. No no... I guess Logan wouldn't 'approve' or whatever... So I sigh to my tired self and immediately perking up again. "Well my visit has been short and sweet! I have nothing else to do here! Bye bye!" I exclaim before twirling, bowing and sinking out. I rise up in my room again. I see Logan just sitting there waiting for me. I sit next to him on the bed. "Hey there friend of mine!" I announce with glee. He looks at me and smiles cheerfully. He really seems to like me calling him my friend. I don't think he got told that a lot on the light side. His smile makes me so happy. I honestly really wanted to kiss him but then I realized that as much as I usually would do whatever I wanted right now he's my only friend. If I ruin that I really have nothing. I want to so bad but in all honesty I kind of live off of friends. Without people to annoy who will still stay afterwards I'm just the annoying and lonely one. Being just annoying is really good enough for me. I'll let him know eventually just not yet. Anyway, for now we're just friends. "You have a really nice smile," I say as I feel my cheeks start to kind of hurt from smiling so much. My smile was usually ingenuine because I always smile to keep up my insane and happy look. Logan stopped smiling and it felt like I was see through and he was looking right through me. I gave a gulp as he stared at me with a cold look on his face. "What's wrong?" I question with worry clear in my tone, involentarily. "Your smile." Thats all he said. I just raised an eyebrow and waited for him to explain. "Why are you smiling? You're clearly not happy," he stated in his serious tone as he furrowed his brow. Like I said, looking right through me. I feel myself getting nervous since he caught me red handed. "You don't smile when you're happy, what's that about?" I come up with a somewhat quick response. "I asked first," he says trying to dodge my question. "Well, I asked second and two is more than one so you have to answer first!" I say with excitement but he doesn't even flinch, "That doesn't make sense and you trying to confuse me won't work."..... Holy shit I'm hard. "You're really good at that," I admit and he has a smug look on his face that just says 'I know'. 'Just kiss him, who cares if he doesn't want to, you can just force him or even better than just a kiss. Rip his clothes off, and tear him apart. Just take him. Grab him.'  No.. I shouldn't... But he looks so- no! I feel my breathing get faster. I feel overwhelmed and the walls start closing in on me. I hugs my knees as I feel the cold increase. Then I feel something on my shoulder... It was warm, really warm. I turned to see Logan. His hand was on my shoulder and he looked at me reassuringly. I feel my breathing slow down and the room looks normal again as the temperature goes to a normal level. "Remus... did you just have a panic attack?" He asked with much concern. I couldn't smile anymore it just hurt to much. When I looked at him words failed to leave my lips. All I did was nod. I couldn't lie to him. I knew he was gonna judge me or hate me and leave me, just like Janus and Roman and Virgil... I closed my eyes and waited for his venomous words. At this point Janus would be yelling at me, Roman wouldn't care and Virgil would just storm out and blame me for something. I waited and waited but there was no shouting. He wasn't ignoring me either. He just hugged me. He was obviously trying to comfort me and not doing great at it, if I were anyone else. He hugged me but he stuffed his face in my chest, I wasn't opposed to it and it made my face blush. I just hugged him back and held him close. I can barely control myself. I knew if either of us moved too much I'd go out of control. He moved his head sideways so his whole face wasn't squished in me. He then tilted his head up to me, "Are you okay?" I looked at him and smiled. "Yeah sorry about that, love," as soon as I said it my face went pale then bright red. His went a deep red, "Excuse me?" he asked, shocked. "I-I sAiD sOrRy AbOuT tHaT, lO, yOu kNoW lIkE sHoRt fOr lOgAn!" I panicked really badly and my voice cracked a lot. His face returned to it's regular color. I was relieved that he believed me. He was so perfect, and nice to me. He had beautiful blue eyes and he had fair skin that was so clear and soft. His lips we beautiful and soft too, I wish I could kiss him. His whole body was more perfect than the most gorgeous thing you can think of. He was all round just stunning. We just laid there in bed as I admired him, everything about him. 

(Hey pals! sorry for still taking so long. I want to say before anything great that I have an actual serious note. I really would appreciate if nobody comments on how I make the sides act, I'm not Thomas Sanders and I know my depiction of the sides aren't perfect but I do it how it makes me happy and a lot of others too. If you don't like it than you can stop reading and any comments of the sort will be deleted. Thank you! Anyway thanks so much for reading guys. I hope you guys are liking this because I honestly love writing it so much. Anyway keep Covid safe and stay positive pals! 1069 words)