Against The Destiny

Chapter 18

#GrizaldeEighteen

I thought I was strong enough to face this kind of problem, masyado akong matapang sa harap ng iba. I can talk shit in front of others, curse my friends, and throw a kick to Zion, but I'm still the fragile Hellary who's hoping to see the smile of her parents.

"Sorry I'm late."

Umangat ang tingin ko sa kakarating lang na si Cleo, agad niya akong hinalikan sa pisngi bago naupo. I asked her to meet me, and I was surprised when she said yes despite of her hectic schedule.

We share the same resemblance, at pareho din kaming mukhang stress.

"Works fucking me off."

She cursed and tried to comb her hair, her eyes fixated on me, she raised her eyebrow as if asking me what the heck is wrong.

I sighed and just stare at the cake na inorder ko pa kanina at ngayon ay durog durog na dahil kanina ko nadin pinag tutusok.

"You sound so down earlier, mas nakakapagod paba 'yang iniisip mo kesa sa pag ra-round ko sa hospital?"

"Mom and—"

And when I was about to tell her everything, she cut me off to call the waiter for her order. I got pissed and mentally start to murder her.

Kaasar din 'to.

"Thanks!" And then she turned to me. "Ano ulit 'yon?" She asked like nothing happened.

I remain glaring at her, making her look confuse.

"What?!"

She asked, I rolled my eyes and just continue what I was about to say. Mariin naman itong nakinig habang sinimulang pakpakin ang in-order na casava cake, she keeps on nodding at mukhang nag sisimula nang maging lutang pero nag patuloy padin ako.

Limang minuto na ako natapos mag kwento o mag sumbong pero tahimik padin siya, nagawa niya pang manghingi ng tubig at uminom.

"Hmm, that's not healthy."

She finally commented after a minute of silence.

"Aren't you mad?"

I nervously asked, her brows furrowed as she sipped on her shake.

"For what?"

She asked, confused again.

"Well, you just heard it. Nag sumbong ako kay Lola, and she scolded Mom, your Aunt."

Muli siyang sumubo ng cake at nag kibit balikat lang.

"Why should I? Tita Jesa is old enough, hindi na siya bata para mang war shock pa ako. At sa dami ng ginagawa ko, idadagdag ko pa ba 'yan sa problem list ko?"

She laugh and rolled her eyes to me.

"Mindset ba, mindset."

She even point her head.

Right, why am I even thinking kung magagalit siya? Pake ko ba kung magalit siya?

At hindi din ako nakatakas sa kaniya ng itanong niya ang dahilan kung bakit ako may punishment, dahilan na ginabi ako ng uwi at nag simula ang away nila Mom, and I end up mentioning Zion's name kahit na ayaw ko.

And we ended the discussion na punong puno ako sa pang aasar niya. I went home before four, tahimik ang bahay at nag papaikot ikot lang sa loob si Manang.

My whole weekend went like that, sa sobrang tahimik ng bahay, hindi ko mapigilang malungkot at maisip ang masasayang alaala ko kasama ang buong pamilya. Hindi ko na tuloy alam kung saan ang mas maayos, ang marinig ang ingay na pag tatalo nila Dad, o ang manatiling ganito katahimik ang paligid?