Fallen Angel

FALLEN ANGEL -Part 3

We all are on our own journey. But mine is incomplete without you in it.

It's a fine Sunday morning. I opened my eyes and my sister was still sleeping. I got freshen up and I made coffee for everyone. I noticed she gave me a strange smile. I asked her “what happened”. She said “check your mobile” and went off. I unlocked my mobile and i saw his text followed by her reply:
                   “hey mama! We all are fine here and I hope you are doing super good. Mama, she is sleeping peacefully and she is not missing you but, I am missing you. You both went to Paris, so when you gonna take me to a trip? Mama someday, you and me will go to Greenland all alone. sunset in Greenland will look amazing. let's go and enjoy to the fullest. I know you always love me more than you love her. Then, why don't we get married? Lol. Choose wise. LOL. miss you, take care. bye mama.”
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Now y'all tell me! should i be happy for his text or angry for her reply or sad that I didn't notice his text? I'm paavam😭. Why on earth sisters are like this damn? I'll see her later bcoz I've to reply him now. And here it goes;
             “Hey foe, .. I've lots to say but when the time comes I always run out of words. Cursing myself for sleeping early yesterday. I know you don't like me saying sorry to you but still im sorry. Btw, why are you posting shirtless pic in IG? And am seeing my sister commenting on all your post. What's going on? Will handle this when I see you in person 🤨. I wanna see you in video call tomorrow (as it's my birthday I hope he'll remember). please find some time for me. I know you are busy, but try to understand. I'm feeling so empty without you. I feel like everyone is happy around me. how many times I should go through our album? I wish the pictures speaks. so that I won't be waiting to hear from you. Is this love or something more than love? You came like a candle in my darkness and your career blew up my candle. But still I respect you and your career. I love you and I love everything that you loves. I miss you idiot. Next time, text me when I am awake and btw how are you?? ” ....

Vedio call is not just a vedio call.....It's an emotion...

Its 11p.m now. One more hour to go for your Angel's birthday. Everyone was sleeping but, I was waiting for him. I know he will definitely video call me to greet me. Each seconds seems like a long year for me. I've no patience.I can't wait to see my prince . Long-distance relationships are beautiful but also killing me. OMG! it's  11:59 now. I saw an incoming VC. Yep ,it's him. The one whom I was waiting for. The one I was longing for. The one and only soul who can make me smile from my heart. My man. As I swiped up, I saw the most beautiful eyes. Those eyes were full of love. We shared silence for 1 second by starring at each other. Suddenly the VC gone black. I couldn't see him. I thought it was a network issue but it wasn't. He lighted a candle and started playing guitar (I never know that he knows to play guitar lol). It was some melody. He also sang a song for me. I felt his music in my heart. I was out of my world. Isn't he lovely? He said “Happy birthday idiot” in a husky voice. No one else can make my birthday more special than this. we don't know what to speak. All we shared is complete silence. But our eyes spoke thousands of words. I was capturing all his smile, voice, moments everything in my heart. VC continued till morning 5 a.m. Then he have to go for parade. So, I send off him with half heart. At last I said “stay safe, stay same and be mine” . VC ends. Then I went back to sleep. B'day morning. I received lot of msg's,  calls, gifts for my B'day. Then I also received a small parcel send by “unknown”. I signed and received the parcel. Mum and dad asked me “who send your this?”. I said “I don't know.There is no name in it”. When i opened the box, i saw something that amazed me!! Guess what?? ........

“ GIFTS ”...!!!! Cheap or costly.. It doesn't matter ..But the efforts you made , matters the most ....

Everyone's still guessing ?haha 😂!! Don't worry ? Won't keep you guessing anymore .....

(Back to the story.....♥)
This gift is special.... There is a life in it... Ufff😊it was cute Lil puppy ♥ it had a neck belt with a name tag "JAAN" 💖......who is this jaan? ( vera yaru Nama hero sir tha) ....do y'all remember that I asked him a puppy? Here it is ....I asked him to buy me a puppy and name him "Jaan" (Sema sweet la...name a sonanga) because, I could able to call his name all day long.  This puppy bring me a happy tears ...he wrapped all his love in this box along with his name "Jaan"..."My Jaan"😊. Even though he is far away from me he is trying to fullfill all my wishes as I said before, he never fails to make me feel loved.... How do you feel, when you realize that someone,somefar where thinking about you all day and taking efforts to make you happy, even though they can't see you in person ? This is what called "Selfless love "...Being loved by the one right person is the best feeling ever...At this moment I wanna hug my love...but I can't do that... My eyes were filled with tears ....I made a call to thank him....he picked up my call and said "Anything for you my dear enemy"... We always used to call each other enemy because we met through a fight and there is a sayings "Love your enemies"😉.....we are in love .....But suddenly 😥.......!!!

Like waves in the ocean , life changes every moment !!!....

Life is uncertain. Why life never let you to be happy always?”.
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After my birthday,  I felt like I have to thank him in person for taking such efforts for me. So i booked a flight to Kashmir where he is camped.Me and my Jaan (puppy) got in plane and reached Kashmir within no time.  I was so much happy and curious to meet him after so many months . Same time, i was very much excited to see how he's gonna react after seeing me .l went to the army camp in kashmir ..Wow You know what?Kashmir is beautiful..The guards stopped me from getting inside the army quarters because trespassing is not allowed in there .They got my details and i said “i wanna meet Mr. Jaan the Commandor of army training command”.They asked me to be seated and they made a call to Jaan(it seems)through intercom .But the call was unanswered.The guards said  “maybe the training is still on, so that the person you wanna meet is not answering his call .so you can wait here if you want ”.I had no other go because im here to meet Jaan ,no matter what.! I was waiting there for more than a hour..doesn't matter how many times the guard tried to reach him in call.Still the call is unanswered. As its getting late ,the guards asked me to leave for today because outsider's are not allowed to stay inside the camp during nights.Its already 6.p.m ..Where will i go ?? where is this bloody Jaan ?why he is not answering my phone calls?.Is he okay? Is he safe there? Lots of questions running in my mind. I started walking out of the camp . I dunno where i gonna go ,but i was sure that im not going back home without seeing him.. As i walked out of the quarters ,i was still holding the gateway and trying to sneak inside. My instinct asked me to turn back one last time ,to see whether my Jaan is inside!!!! I turned back . He's there!.I saw him inside the gate!.But that didn't make me happy.!

And were so easy to replace me and walked away from everything

Is this what i came for? Is this my Jaan?  What am i seeing? I couldn't believe my eyes.I was so foolish that I believed in every word he said, now I can see what person, he truly is.He hugged a girl and she hugged him back! She said “I Love You”.He remained silent instead of saying that he is already taken.They we're taking about their marriage. BETRAYAL! He is Still looks the same to me. It was easy to love him from this far away but,i cant love him now. Even tho he is this much close.I can see my love gets fade infront of my eyes.Leaving me alone here waiting for him,he carries that girl in his arms.I wish he could take away all those memories we build together, those photos and the moment's lives in it, his kisses,warmth and even a damn piece of his memory dug deep inside my heart.Why he did this to me? Well, There is a saying that goes, "The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies".Come back Jaan.I can't take this.Wish we still had what we first had.The life we had together all the sudden ended. Everything I thought was true was not.I lost my self in that moment. I didn't fight.I didn't had the energy to fight.I never thought I’d lose him forever.The thing that hurt the most is how much I loved him and how much I wanted to keep him.I lost in silence.I walked away from his sight.The street's were empty like my inner self.I was walking in a road which was full of snow with eyes full of tears.It hurts Jaan. you'll never know how much you hurt me today.  Feeling emptiness and something made me faint..