Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel (Part 7)

Maybe is somewhere am going and never have been before.

Me: Jaan. Don't search for me and take good care of yourself. At times of war, be careful because I don't wanna meet you soon. Do you understand?

JAAN: Yes, Miss.Selfish!!

Me: Now do me a favour!

JAAN: WHAT?

Me: Gimme a kiss and walk out of this room. Do not turn back. Not only today, ever don't turn back in your life.

JAAN: STFU. I'm not going anywhere!

Me: Please walk away. I don't want you to see me going.That would hurt me more than anything. Go far away somewhere where you won't be hearing all this screaming sound, once I'm gone. I lOVE YOU JAAN and please now go!

JAAN: (kissed me). Soon or later we'll meet again. I LOVE YOU. (Walked away but for a second something stopped him in the doorway and he turned back. I smiled at him and he ran away from me forever).
Finally, I'm left alone. No one is gonna see me going, which I wanted. My eyes started shutting down, my heart beat started decreasing to nil. Even, the line was straight. Dear God, thanks for this life. Finally, you are Fallen Angel is signing off. GOODBYE EVERYONE 🖤.

(3 days later)

Sister: Mom and Dad! It's been 3 days, we've learnt to live without her. I know Akka(sister)is more special to you both than I'm. she is your first child and she'll always be. She was not only my sister. She have been my love, friend, BFF, partner in crime and sometimes even my mom. I was never a responsible child before because, I know she was there to handle everything. She earned for us. She lived for us. Papa, I miss her so badly. I can never fill her place in your life. I'm not here to replace her with me. But I swear, from today I'll try to be like her. I'm here to take care of you both. She gave me the courage to handle everything. Our life is never gonna be the same anymore. But I swear, I won't let it go even more worse. She'll definitely curse me, if I don't take care of you both. I'll live her dreams. I'll make true all her dreams left unlived. I'll always choose you both over anything in this world, which she always did. Her priority have always been you both.
(hugs with tears)....

Good-byes are only for those who loves with eyes. Because those who loves with heart and soul there is no such thing as separation.

(Angel's Sister) I gave tablet's to my mom and dad and i made sure that they slept. It was around 11p.m, I texted mama(Jaan) .

Sister: Mama, you there? where are you? You left six days back and you didn't return ? You ok? 
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Jaan: Hey, Machinichi. Im nowhere. Sorry, that i left y'all because she wanted me to go away. Hope y'all are okay there !
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Sister: Mama, we all are not ok here! Mom and dad are broken and i really dunno how to console them because am not in a state to make them understand. But still am trying! I've show you something , please come back .       
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Jaan: I can understand. I'll come tomorrow but promise me one thing!  
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Sister: what mama?
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Jaan: you should never talk to me about her. I don't wanna know what happened there, after i left. Dont let me know anything about her that she doesn't want to let me know . 
       
Sister: I swear, i wont tell you anything about how she suffered. But am responsible to give you something that belongs only to you. So meet me tomorrow!.    
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Jaan: Yep, sure .
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(One day later .Jaan knocks the doorbell and dad opens the door. A very formal conversation was going between dad and Jaan. Sister comes there and takes Jaan separately by excusing them from dad).      
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Jaan: what's wrong? What you wanna show me?
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Sister: (Handovers a box wrapped beautifully) Here you go mama. I dunno what's inside this box. But she asked me to give it to you, once we reach this day.(walks out of the room)   
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Jaan: Why tf she's doing all this even after she left me with no clue?(Slowly he unwrap the box and he notices a bottle which has a cute girl sitting inside that bottle and also one letter mentioning Jaan's name.The bottle was beautifully in full ocean blue color. The girl sitting inside the bottle has a huge smile on her face. He had no clue about why she left this for him. Finally, he opend the letter and started reading.

I'll miss you a little too much, a little often, and a little more everyday.

Letter from her Fallen angel to the love of his life:
Dearest Enemy,
This is the last time that am gonna call you enemy💔. Incase, if I die unexpectedly here is the message that have prepared for you. Jaan, I can't bear this pain. This is too much for me. I need to end all this pain and to my eyes I find death is the only way to end all this pain. I know that am being selfish but I swear I tried. I can't make it anymore. The only thing that I fear is, leaving you like this. Jaan, I had many dreams like  making our own small beautiful family. Apart from all this blood, tablet's and everything. I can still smell you on me. I can feel your warmth always on me. I may have lived a very short life with you but that's more than enough for me. You showed me what is love and how it feels to be loved. I can't imagine that I wont be alive while you read this letter with eyes full of tears. I swear, when I reach the sky I'll fight with God for giving me cancer. Nee azhadha. You may not see me from tomorrow. You'll not hear from me forever. You'll not be able to kiss me.Yours hands will be searching for me.Your eyes will be missing the sight of us together. But, do you remember that we locked our love at lovelock bridge in Paris. So,our love is never gonna fade. Whenever you look up to the sky, you'll be able to see my through the Moon and I'll shower my love on you. How lucky am to stay in your 💓 forever. What else I need? I lived the best life. My death is no one's fault. It's fate. I never had the Chance to let you know how much I loved you. Not only to you ,even with my parents I never had the chance to love them the way they deserved to be loved. Jaan, my sister is something very special to me and you know this. She is grown-up but still she is like a child. She used to run behind me whenever she needs anything. I dunno who gonna buy her everything she needs. Please take care of her. If I had the chance to live for some more years,then my sister's Marriage would've been my responsibility. But unfortunately, I don't have that much time. She have found the love of her life. Now, it's you who should talk to my parents and help them get married.Our love didn't had a chance to end in Marriage. At least let's make them happy. I know that am putting pressure on you. But Jaan, who else I can rely on? Your the only hope that gonna make me close my eyes peacefully. I know, you'll be here to finish everything that I left unfinished.Jaan Sametime, I wanna see you happy with or without me. The world is too big to search for love.Travel the world. Do everything that makes you happy. Wherever you go, my love will be following you there. Not even a day you gonna be alone. Jaan, I've never been disappointed by you since I've fell in love with you. But if you will commit anything that I don't expect from you then, my love will be pointless. My death is fate. No one is responsible for what happened to me. So I dont want you to be blamed and spoiled for it. Do good and be good. Live until your time comes to meet me in sky. I'm living in your heart. That's where am gonna reside from tomorrow and forever. Again am saying, I'm leaving peacefully only bcoz of you. I believe in you. Your brave enough to handle all this. No one's life stops for no one. I'll be watching you every second. Jaan, I've left you an girl inside a bottle. It says, I'll be your “Ginny"(superpower). Whenever you miss me, talk to that girl sitting inside the bottle. It's me. I'll make all your wish comes true except the wish to live with me. I'm going nowhere. I'll be with you as your Ginny. Jaan, am talking all our memories, your kisses, voice,smell, hugs, warmth and finally your LOVE. As you always say “we might be in distance but not distant”. I'm never too far away from you. Touch your heart and you'll hear me saying I LOVE YOU through your beats. It's not a goodbye. It's just a lil “See you someday”. I LOVE YOU JAAN💖
by,
Your love Ginny.

(Whoever said loss gets easier with time is a lier)......