Too Much (Rei x Reader)

~Until You Remember~

So I hope you enjoy this lol don't really have much to say!
I DONT OWN FREE! OR ITS BEAUTIFUL CHARACTERS!
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ANOTHER FEW WEEKS LATER

I was doing exactly what I had in mind. So far everything was going well, though it was difficult to try and find her in the exact same spot sometimes, so hard that I even had to have the team help me round her up into the right spots...it was embarrassing but I had a feeling it was working. (Y/n) was acting calmer and more comfortable around me and the rest of the guys. She wasn't fully into our friendship like before, she was most definitely a bit hesitant at the thought of being close with someone at the moment, but she at least was talking to me whenever I initiated conversation.
Today's memory to be relived was when I walked home with her for the first time. I remember that day like it was just the other day...it was the most nervous I had been around (Y/n), third of course to when I asked her to be my girlfriend and when I first kissed her.
"(Y/n)-chan!~ Wait! I-uh-need your help with something real quick before you leave!" Nagisa-kun called out to her quickly before she could bolt away like she always had after the last bell. He was obviously giving me a chance to run out to the front gate and wait for her like the memory dictated.
Taking the hint I did so.
I heard her sigh and walk back to Nagisa-kun, "Wait is it this time Nagisa-kun....?" I heard her voice fade as I made my way out of the classroom and down the hall quickly.
I had barely made it to the gate when I saw (y/n) walking out of the school.
My mind couldn't help but flash back to the first time.
She looked just as beautiful, if not more, as she did that day. The day was extraordinary in weather with just a bit of a breeze so her (h/l) (h/c) hair blew softly along with a few petals from some near by Sakura trees...my breath was taken out of my body as if the wind itself was carrying it away. Everything was perfect. Feeling my heart pound furiously, I instinctively reached up to grip it through my shirt.
"Rei-chan...what are you doing out here? Don't you have swim practice?" (Y/n) asked as she approached me.
I hesitated for a moment because I couldn't regain the breath that had been lost at the sight of her. Finally finding my words I said, "Oh! No ma'am not today! And I found out that we live close together...a-and I was wondering if you wouldn't mind accompanying me on the walk home?" I asked tentatively, using the exact same words as before with the same warm yet nervous smile.
(Y/n) looked like she was confused for a moment before she finally shrugged her shoulders indifferently, "If you want." Was all she said as she passed by me, walking toward her house.
I stood there for a moment, "Not exactly the same answer at last time..." I murmured under my breath then heaved a sigh, straightening my back. "BUT! I'll take it!" I said more enthusiastically as I turned to catch up with her.
It was surprising to me that I had remembered so many small details in our relationship...but I had. I remembered everything...down to the way she smiled at me. I guess those moments were even more important to me than I thought.
We walked together in silence, which wasn't really like the first time...but it was something.
"Hey, Uh (y/n)-senpai?" I finally spoke up and broke the stuff silence.
She never looked at me, her gaze was fixated forward as she walked. "Yes Rei-chan?" She answered curtly. Her bubbly personality was most definitely gone...she more acted like Haruka-senpai now.
Nervously, I rubbed the back of my neck and said with a smile, "How are you feeling lately?" I gave a sheepish giggle.
(Y/n) hesitated a moment without even looking like she was going to answer my question. Finally I heard her voice, though soft and low, it spoke. "Confused." She blankly put it.
I imagined that she would be, but I didn't want to tell her I knew that. I tilted my head in 'confusion' still gazing at her profile. My heart shuttered at her beautiful face in the setting sun. I just wanted to pull her into my arms...I just wanted to hold her. "Why do you say that?" I asked.
I saw her shrug slightly and then she finally turned her gaze to look at me, her (e/c) eyes piercing my purple ones. "I find myself attracted to you Rei." My heart leaped at her words and I froze.
"Wha-What are you saying?" I asked nervously my eyes looking away from hers.
"Well what I'm saying is, I feel like I've known you before. Something about you is making me have headaches...and recently I've had...feelings. But I don't know where they stem from. And I feel like I have experienced them before. But I have no idea how." Only a week and I'm getting this reaction from her? Wow this whole idea is working out quite a bit better than I thought.
"It's only been a few weeks since I've known you...'so why do I feel this way?' I keep asking myself that. Then I try and ask my mother, but she just gets all weird and defensive. She doesn't even answer my questions...So, will you Rei?" (Y/c) asked me seriously. Her voice trembled with fear and I looked back at her because I was worried. She was looking down at the ground, her knuckles white from the grip on her books.
I stood there for a moment and this time I couldn't hold myself back any longer. Wrapping the beautiful woman into my arms, I pulled her tightly against my chest. "I'll help you with whatever you need." I informed her quietly as my arms tightened around her.
After holding her for a few minutes, I pulled away and looked down at her. "Let's go to my house, ok?" I gently slipped my hand into hers. Oh god how it had been so long since I held her hand. I loved it so much.
I started walking but was stopped short by the weight behind me. Looking back, I saw (y/n) standing there. Her eyes were fixated on our hands, her mouth parted slightly. She looked fearful but at the same time thoughtful.
"(Y/n)-senpai...? What's the matter?" I questioned fearfully.
(Y/n)'s hand was shaking slightly. "Y-Your hand...i-it fits so well with m-mine." She stated confused, "I-I've felt your hand before. Thi-This feeling...I've felt it before." Her mind was fighting against itself to try and remember. But her heart couldn't be confused. Her heart knew me, her heart remembered my touch, my feeling, my love. I felt so awful when I saw tears begin to form at the side of (y/n)'s eyes. She was so stressed out, confused and scared.
Recognizing her fear, I gave her a gentle smile. "(Y/n)." I called out to her softly, earning her gaze to be lifted to my face. "There's no need to be scared, ok? Try and remember on your own time." I informed as I once again embraced her. "We have all the time in the world. I'm in no hurry. As long as you'll allow me, I'm content with just being by your side and helping you until you remember." I kissed her forehead gently and flashed another gentle warm smile down at her.
(Y/n) just stared up at me with those beautiful (e/c) eyes. My heart swelled with hope as I saw a glint of light shine dimly in her eyes at me. I hadn't seen that shine since she had been hit.
We continued the walk to my house, hand in hand. (Y/n) asked me many questions on the way but I didn't find it right to answer them until we were in the comfort of my house. I knew this was going to be very emotional and it was going to put tons of more stress on her, so I wanted to do it in a place where she could break down if she so desired.
I pulled out my key ahead of time, it had actually been the one that I had given to (y/n), it was still on the chain even. Her parents gave it back to me...along with many other things of mine such as one of my sweatshirts, a few stuffed animals I had won her throughout our many festival dates, and all of our photos. They told me "Please stay away from our daughter. We don't want her in any more harm because of certain people." They completely erased me from her memory...It had taken me many weeks to get over the pain of my things being returned with such coldness.
But I understood where they were coming from, I would hate the person who was responsible for (y/n)'s accident as well...I mean I already did. I hated myself for being irresponsible and falling asleep, knowing she had to be home that night, for allowing her to leave, for not being there to walk her home...I could've prevented all of this if only I had been responsible.
Being snapped from my thoughts by the feeling of (y/n) hands grabbing mine with the key, I looked at her. "What's wro-"
She gazed at the key, I could see her mind working. "That's...that's my key." She said knowingly a look of confusion sat on her features, her eyes pondered as to why I would have it.
I laughed sadly. "Yeah actually. You're right." I smiled weakly at the key.
"Why do you have it?" (Y/n) questioned me as her gaze switched to my face.
"Because it's the key to my apartment." I answered softly and pointed to the house in front of us.
She gazed at me for a moment before she looked in the direction I was pointing.
"I remember this place too..." She said in awe, walking up the stairs to the door by herself. She leaned against the door slight and touched it gently with both of her hands. After a moment, (y/n) leaned back and looked up at the rest of the house. "This place..."
I appeared behind her and nodded, "Im not surprised you remember it. You've spent quite a lot of your time here." I informed her as I unlocked the door and allowed her to enter first.
(Y/n) looked like everything was a labyrinth. Her brows were knitted in confusion and worry as her eyes rapidly scanned the room. Her breathing started to quicken and she touched the temple of her head...exactly where she had been bleeding profusely that night.
I patted the top of her head gently, flashed her a warm smile, and said "Hey, it's alright. Just relax. You aren't forced to remember anything right now. Alright? Just take in your surroundings as you please. I'll go get you something to drink." Kissing her temple without thinking, I headed into the kitchen.
"Oh geeze...I just want her to feel alright again. I don't want her to be scared anymore..." I said to myself quietly as I poured her favorite drink into a glass.
When I came back to the living room (y/n) was inspecting my picture frames that were decorated all of my tables, side tables and even my fireplace. All of the pictures consisted of her and me, or just of her. Few had some of my parents...but not many.
She looked so engrossed in them. I watched her for a moment, wondering what she would do.
(Y/n) reacted out her hand and gently touched her finger tips to the picture of us at our first New Years festival together as a couple. It was taken before the fireworks went off, Nagisa-kun found it appropriate to snap a photo of me holding her from behind as we sat on the ground watching the sky and awaiting the fireworks.
Picking up the picture from the table, I saw a tear fall from her cheek and hit the glass. "Why can't I remember this..? Why can't I remember you...?" She asked herself quietly, her voice shaking terribly.
I winced at the brokenness in her voice. Then I decided to interrupt her. "It's alright (Y/n). You're only going to hurt yourself if you try and force your mind to remember." I laid the glass on the coffee table in front of the couch. "And I don't want that." I told her as she sat down.
I took a seat next to her and took a hesitant breath. "So you want answers...right (y/n)?" I questioned ready to explain everything to her.
I saw her nod out of the corner of my, I lowered my head at her answer...I didn't want to do it, knowing what it was going to put her through. But I also want to redirect her wishes. So with another deep, hesitantly scared breath. I nodded, "Alright..."
And I explained everything to her. Everything.@