Bad & Badder (paused)

10. The Awkward Silence

When it was finally time to see Zach, a nurse came out to let us know we can visit him.

Only one visitor was allowed at once.

The girl with purple hair walked to go first, but the guy who drove me held her back.

He looked at me, and i went to his room first.

I hesitated a little before i walked into his room.

Would he want to see me? Will he yell for me to get out?

I don't know, I just walked in and when i saw him my heart fell.

There were wires everywhere. Most were attached to his body others were connecting each machine to the other.

The beeping of the room had tortured me more and more every time it beeped.

It was a constant reminder it was my fault.

Zach was paler that he usually is. He chest rising and falling with each breath he takes.

I walked closer to him, trying not to wake him.

I didn't want to hurt him anymore. He looked so broken laying there. If i even whispered it would crush him in dust.

My heart hurt seeing his eyes that are usually smiling closed and frowning.

I looked away from him and to the window.

Tears were starting to well in my eyes. I can't take it.

The thoughts running through my head, and the constant repeat of the drive by is too much for me.

He deserves so much better, he deserves to have friends who treat him nicely.

Friends who talk to him and aren't a bitch like me. People that will make him happy. People that won't put him in as much danger as i do.

He deserves so much better than me. And i will only cause more pain to his life and i can't do that to him.

He helped me when i was in the dark, so i will help him by taking the darkness away from him.

I walked out of his room and headed straight to the exit.

Tears in my eyes blocking my vision.

I go to my car and try to open the door, but it's locked. I pat my pockets for my keys, i slowly realized i wasn't the one who drive.

Fuck.

To top my day off.

I was contemplating on either punching my car window, or going back inside to get my keys, when i was interrupted.

"Hey."

I looked up to see the dude. I really need to find out their names.

"How are you? Are you okay?"

My eyes squinted to him, dropping a few tears to my cheeks.

"Are you fucking serious? My best friend was shot because of me and you think i'm okay."

His eyes changed to an unknown emotion.

"Obviously i'm not okay. I cause destruction wherever i go, and my presence almost got my friend killed. And to top it all off i got you asking stupid questions, while i'm two minutes away from fucking losing it. So please give me my keys before i tear your fucking throat out."

He just stood there, he didn't move his hands to get my keys. He kept his arms by his sides.

Fine. I'll get them myself.