Zayn's Pov:Harry had kissed me, my mind was spinning, and I didn't even know where I was running to.
Just away from Harry, and to prevent myself from further embarrassing myself.
Poor Harry, I didn't even explain myself at all.
I just couldn't, there was no way, to explain my pathetic existence.
It was just so messed up.
But I couldn't love myself, so how was I supposed to love Harry?
Can someone explain that to me?
I didn't deserve Harry, and Harry didn't deserve a useless broken person like me.
That reality really hit me, and for some reason I started crying.
I wasn't full on sobbing, but the tears were definitely pouring down my face, at a rapid pace.
I looked pathetic walking down the street, headphones in my ears, with the Oliver Twist book in my hands.
At least I had that.
I was so excited to go home and read it, it was like an escape from real life.
From Alan, Harry, and what my life was.
Sadness, and abuse.
No love.
I walked home, and I didn't even care if Alan was home.
There was no point in fighting anymore, I should just be used to it by now.
I take a deep breath, and walk through the living room slowly.
There is nobody home, and I internally cheer.
Then I spot a note on the fridge, written in messy scrawl.
Faggot,
Will be spending the night at Billy's.
Will be back tomorrow.
Don't be a pain in the ass, or there will be hell to pay.
Alan.
I crumpled the note up, and threw it in the trash can.
At least I would have the house to myself tonight.
I was starving, but there was nothing to eat in the house.
Also, I kind of wanted Harry to not accuse me of having an eating disorder anymore.
So I was mainly doing it for Harry, which was messed up, seeing as how I basically just rejected him.
But regardless, it was a Friday night, and I was hungry, and bored, so to find food we go.
It was freezing out, and dumb me never did get a winter coat.
I should really get on that.
So I meandered around, in search of food.
I had stole a twenty, from Alan's wallet, that was sitting out.
I doubt his drunk ass, would even notice.
He was so drunk half of his life anyways.
Or should I say ninety percent of the time.
I wish someone else had adopted me, someone that would actually treat me like a human being, and care about me.
Looked like I would be dreaming about that one for awhile.
Alan would never love me, no matter how much I wanted him to.
I was walking, and almost walked smack dab into the door.
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Abused A Zarry Story
FanfictionZayn Malik was just an ordinary teenager. Except he was hiding a dark secret. Zayn had been hopeful, once he had been adopted, but that hope was dashed in a single second. His new dad abused him. But a new kid comes to school, named Harry. Will Harr...