I remember that I was under the half-moon that night
And I can only see three to five vague twinkling stars
There was moon light of course and they showed me a scene
The sky as the screen as I watch till the sun drops its gorgeous smile
And for a hundredth time I wrote something again like this
Naming things and playing with words I guess
But what can I do if there was nothing left for me to spend my time with?
Those emptied pens formed the longest bridge for me to cross
Once I saw a shooting star but I can't even make a wish
Accidently I was lost and found a peaceful wishing well
Yet I forgot how to speak and use letters to make wish
My wish? What is my wish? I don't know, I don't even know.
How is it to live in a lively place?
No one might be able to get lonely if they play their problems there
Maybe? I thought it was the answer
Such a fool I am for thinking that way
I was looking outside my window as the rain was pouring down
Trying to count the drops coming from upward
Do you think I'm crazy for doing that? Because I do too
Thunder, lighting then I'll sleep, it's boring.
Then I've come up with an idea of finishing a novel
Making friends with change for my daily routine
And I read something that was so perfectly fit for me
So perfect to make me smile a bit
'Time's running, but why can't I feel it'?
You know, I once tried to hold a sharp blade and something like that
But I was afraid not because of the pain I might feel
But afraid that I might not be able to feel any
There's no change in me
Happiness lies inside us they always say
Scratch that, do I have any from the first place?
Tell me, would you?
I was doing great until yesterday
I was still typing through my laptop until this morning
Move my body, I wasn't able to talk, why?
I was still writing
Until one day I was lost in thoughts
Until one day I was defeated
Until one day I decided not to
Until one day, I gave up
Until one day, I was,
Already crying
Emotions unlocking on its own as I bleed to death
Until one day I died, living dead from the time being
