Forever And A Day

Eighteen: The Past

I stared at the wedding pictures taken a week ago .

It had been a wonderful day even when it was a small wedding with only our parents and siblings as our witnesses.

I'd have loved a big traditional one ,but Max had put his foot down and refused when our mothers started planning it .

They weren't happy and I ?....I wasn't happy either ,but to make him happy I had to respect his wishes .

In the end I suppose it was alright and what counted the most was that I got the man I wanted ,right?.

Our first time together on our wedding night had made up for the disappointment of not having the wedding I wanted .

He'd been gentle and considerate . But there's a but in it. He had held back some. I could feel it when he'd touched me . He'd laughed it off when I'd asked him about it afterwards . He'd told me I had a too big of an imagination . He told me I should write a book with that imagination as to use it better other than thinking things that wasn't there .

I guess he was right , but I couldn't help but feel that I wasn't imagining things . That he was just saying things so I won't bother asking again .

I sighed softly and put the picture back in it's frame . Max wasn't here at the moment in our new house in this neighborhood full of big houses and stuck up  glamorous people that had too much money .

I didn't want to be there . Max could've just bought a house in any neighborhood that was smaller than the one I stood in . It would've suited me better .

Anyway Max was in America again doing his thing before the cameras while I was stuck here alone with no one to talk to but the walls and furniture .

I would've loved to have gone with him . However , he'd shot down that idea as soon as I lifted it .

" I would like to take you with me ,Carly", he'd said ," but I wouldn't be able to entertain you or anything . Just stay here . I'll be back in a few months ".

So I'd stayed like a good little girl and now I was bored out of my mind .

I had thought of applying for a job , yet when Max had called last night he'd  adviced me against it .

" I have enough money for us both ", he'd said and that was the end of it .

I missed him . I missed his kisses . His warm hugs . Even his moody moments . Yeah I am whipped . Sue me !.

I just hope in a few months I would still be in love with him . Absence makes the heart grow fonder ,right?.

I'm not sure about that . We'll just have to see .

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                   Max's Pov
" Miranda , I can't come over tonight I'm filming , remember?", I said over the phone while glaring at the wall of my trailer .

Seriously , that woman was sometimes a real pain in the ass .  She couldn't take no for an answer even when you have a damn good reason .

" When are we going to discuss the wedding date ,then?", she asked ," you've been putting it off for months ,Max ".

I sighed deeply at that . Yeah , another wedding and this time I won't be able to get out of throwing a traditional one .

I couldn't get married to her either . As a matter of fact I was already a married man. Am I going to tell Miranda that?. Hell no . It'll break her heart .

Damn why'd I marry my childhood friend?. I don't love her like I love Miranda and yet I married her without thinking twice. Was I stupid in the head?. I probably am .