Forever And A Day

Nineteen: The Present

Isla Francesca ,named after a pirate princess, reminded me of two or three of the Barbie movies and some game the twins loved to play on their game consoles .

Th bungalows might be something out of a horror game and a Barbie movie , but I couldn't care less .

The exotic plants and the golden sands of the beaches called to me when I first saw it through the windows of the plane .

I couldn't wait  to feel the sand under my bare feet . I wanted to smell those beautiful plants that reminded me that even though I was broken inside I could still appreciate the God given beauty of nature . I was going to live to the fullest here and I was going to enjoy every second of it .

My cousin awaited me at the airport . She was dressed casually ,but stylish in shorts and a shirt that looked cool and sexy on her . I felt sort of awkward in my green and red summer dress as I greeted her . Years of feeling undesirable had this effect on me .

Max had sometimes made me feel like that . It was just the way he looked at me and I guess the way he'd sometimes push me away when all I wanted was to kiss him .

Whenever I dressed to impress him  he'd ask me to wear something else . He never took me out on a date either which I can explain  about now .

It seems my husband had hidden our marriage so well that I've been called the mistress when the world finally found out about me .

Why call me the mistress ?. Unless... I suppose he couldn't have been married to Miranda now , could he ?.

She'd wanted him to divorce me . That spoke for itself ,right?.

Or was he secretly married to her and she found out that he was actually married to me?. That ,that made their marriage null and void since he ain't a polygamist . Or was he ?.

Come to think of it . I don't know much about my own husband . He'd been hiding this secret of him and Miranda for a very long time . How was I so sure he wasn't hiding more things in that overflowing skeleton cupboard of his?.

" Want a tour of the resort before I take you to our bungalow?", Deidré asked when we walked to her car .

" Um , sure . I'd love to see the resort . "

She flashed me a huge grin and I couldn't help but grin back . Goodness, I haven't grinned like this for weeks . Or was it days?. No matter . I just  wanted to laugh and smile now .

The resort really did look like that game's resort . It only needed the zombies to complete it .

When I asked Deidré about it she laughed and said that her boss would probably get a crack out of that one .

He wasn't big on games it seemed . Deidré said he loved other things , like beautiful attractive women . Go figure , another womanising maniac .

" You'll get to meet him tonight at the special dinner I've planned for me ,my colleagues and their families and friends. Don't go drooling over him,though . Clarissa is going to scratch your eyes out ".

" I'm not here to fall for some guy with too much money to handle. I'm here to heal , Deidré . Haven't Aunty Bea told you about my husband's secret ?."

" Yes, but I thought you're going to divorce the man ?. Really, I didn't know that you were married until Mama told me. I wasn't even invited to that special day of yours ".

" I'm sorry ,but Max didn't want a traditional one and I guess I understand now why ".

" Yeah, the bastard was a two timer . Please , Cuz , forget about him for now and enjoy your life for once ".