Chapter 8

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Depressing thoughts and Nightmare Knots
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warning!
Suicidal thoughts!
Depression!
Claustrophobia!
Feeling of loneliness!

Please don't read if you suffer from any of these. 

Kokichi Oma POV

The wind feels nice going through my hair, like before it feels as if I was flying.  Flying away from my problems and life itself.
Sometimes.... I want to fly away from my mistakes and hide myself away.  Away from all the errors I made, and people I've hurt.

I look up at Hope's Peak, wondering why I was chosen to even come here.  Hell, why did I choose to come here.  I knew why, it was to get away from my life.  Thinking I'll start a new one and everything will be.... Fine. 

I was wrong though like always.  Like always, I messed everything up at getting my chances of being better.  Everyone hates me now... I see the way they stare at me.  I see the way they act around me.  And I for sure could see the burning fires in their eyes when they think about me.

Inside Hope's Peak was quiet, it was late after all so everyone is probably asleep.  Good,I don't want anyone to see me like this anyway...

"One step on the stair of life can change how everything goes.  You don't wanna go fast or you'll tumble down back to where you start.  Don't wanna go to slow or you'll never make it.  Take everything nice and easy is the best route" 
That's what my mom always said.  Yet, it had nothing to do of what's happening. It just came to thought.

The door opens to the dorm and I step inside.

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Silence.  Just pure silence.  It somewhat remind me of that day....

The wooden floors creak a bit as I make my way to the bedroom. 

*creak.....*

Climbing up to my bed I try and not to wake everyone up.  I stare at the ceiling. 

Maybe one day I could never wake up... Heh... All I could do is wait and hope... I never wake up...  Never wake up and leave... Leave from my mistakes since there is no way I could say "Sorry" or apologize for the things I've done...  People won't forgive me... People won't think about me... People won't care... Care if I was gone... 

"If there is such thing as a god out there... Let me sleep... Sleep forever and never wake up..." I whisper.

The world slowly goes black as I shut my eyes.  Hoping to never wake up.

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A smile, a devilish smile sit next to me.  Calling me... Calling me words that fill me with despair, fear, and loneliness...  This time these words felt... Worse.  Smiling at my pain and sarrow.

Fingers of people point at me.  Calling me guilty and the embodiment of lies.  Saying words that are despiring in my head.

Cards of six of eyes look at me.  Staring like I killed someone and I'm in court.  Twelve eyes in total stare at me making me feel nervous.

Two cards of a broken heart fall next to me.  One heart that was broken and full of sadness... Other was broken and was lifeless..  Each had a name on the back.

Blood drips onto me.  Cold, pink, blood that was fresh.  Drip.... Drip..... Drip...  I didn't even realised that I was sitting on something cold, metal like...

Fire forms around me, heat surrounds me.  I felt myself starting to sweat.  Images of that day shoot through my mind like an arrow.  That day....

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No...
No..
Nononono...
I put my hands on my head to block the world.  Voices start to get louder... Eyes grow big... More Fingers point at me.... That day flashes through my mind...

 That day flashes through my mind

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NO!
NO!
NO!
NO!

This nightmare was like aknot around my head, tying around my mine harder...  It hurts..  That day.... House..... Fire....Head.... Photos.... Mom....

STOP IT! STOP IT!

The giggling grows louder... Louder... A sound of a leaver clicks in my mind.  A noise of a machine is sound...

SHUT UP!

The fire grows louder and higher...  The machine grows louder... Sirens grow louder...

It feels... As if the walls are closing... Smaller... Smaller.. Smaller...
Onto... Me.. Crushing me down until I'm just...
A

Puddle

Of

Dark

Pink

Blood.

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