my rant and art and everything else book

My head is under the water and I can't fucking breathe

I want to be happy but it's sooo hard

and I just hung out with my girls but two of them were trying to possess each other with something that they saw on tik tok

and I just wanted to talk with them, and tell stories, and listen to music, and roast our marshmallows and be happy

but now I'm sad and I can't explain why, so I'm talking about it. 

I really "relate" to this song....and I just wanted to let you all know. 

Because I think that I understand what it's like to lose a relationship and regret not appreciating it while it lasted. I don't think that I loved this person enough, and I definitely know that this person left me because of my actions, and my words, and now I'm looking back on it and regretting everything. And I think that it's hurting me more than I though that it would. 

And I'm hurting and they're hurting and it's all my fault. 

I miss you guys, and I'm sorry for such a sad note to end some of your nights, and to start some of your days. 

Love, 
Kermit