Me and ushijima were playing chicken with Niko and Tendou and Bokuto and Akaashi were just splashing each other. Now Kenma and Kuro well kenma was like a cat he hated water so he just sat at the end of the pool on the nintendo switch. Kuro kept trying to get him in the water when eventually Kuro just dragged Kenma in. I had a really bad headache so i decided i was done with the pool, i was drying myself off when i felt my head throbbing. I went to go take a pill in my room, when there was a knock at the door... it was kageyama. You smiled taking your pills saying "hey what's up", he smiled and he said we needed to talk. My smile faded as i thought about it, oh no what is this gonna be about... i patted my bed informing him he could sit down. My head was pounding really hard for some odd reason, he started by saying "this has been bugging me forever so i'm just gonna out and say it". Just then you whispered "kags i don't feel so"- black all i saw was black.
~kageyamas pov~
I knocked on y/n's door because this was my chance to tell her how sorry i was for everything because nobody deserves what i put her through. I was young and dumb and i took her for granted but now it's too late so the least i can do is apologize. I walked in and she welcomed me with open arms, i sat down and just as a started talking and then she collapsed. She was cold and small like really small, i frantically grabbed my phone and called 911. I screamed for coach ukai and he came running in, he was feeling her head and trying to find a pulse but couldn't. The ambulance arrived quickly and all the boys ran out of the pool, i was holding y/n in my arms and taking her to the ambulance when he came out. Ushijima screamed "what did you do kagayeama", Tendou was holding him back, i yelled "i didn't do anything we were talking and she collapsed". That's when y/n's coach came out and got in the ambulance with her, they drove away and i just walked back to my room.
They took her away and i don't know why i felt so bad, were those my last words with her. I sobbed and Suga walked in and patted my back while i cried, i never cried but i never got to tell her how sorry i was. And how happy i was that she found somebody new, that's when Ushijima came busting through the door like a mad man. I got up and he stopped once he noticed me crying, he said "what the hell happened i need to know everything", i sat him down and told him what happened. He sighed and said "i don't like you but you know thanks for... helping her, she means the world to me". I said "you really do love her and i see it, i'm sorry for the pain i caused you both... maybe one day we can be friends or whatever". He nodded and said "it's gonna take time but yeah i mean for god sakes you saved her life, but i'm gonna go get an update", he walked out of the room and suga just looked at me.
Suga said "you still love her don't you", i sighed and said "i let her go not realizing how much she meant to me but to answer your question yes...". Suga sighed and said "she's with somebody who loves her and i know your ok with it but i also know it's hurts". I just sat there for a long time... eventually suga left and hinata came in, he had a smile on his face and i said "what are you so happy for boke". He said "y/n is awake but she's not well, coaches said we can visit her tomorrow"! Thanks for letting me know boke, i said while finally breathing for the first time all day, she was alive. It was late and with all the chaos we didn't have dinner so the coaches brought us meat buns to our rooms. I ate and went to sleep quickly.
~ushijimas pov~
I saw y/n leave but it didn't really bother me, i was just talking with Kuro when all of a sudden i heard an ambulance. I ran out of the pool and ran to the front, i saw kageyama hold y/n, what the hell i thought. I screamed at kageyama and said "what the hell did you do to her", Tendou grabbed me and i was angry. He told me that she collapsed and all the anger faded when i saw her body, it looked so pale and lifeless. Coach ran into the ambulance and they took her away, i went to the bathroom and took a shower. I got ready to go to the hospital, that's when coach ukai came up to me and said "wakatoshi calm down and eat you can see her in the morning", i asked him could i talk to kageyama and he nodded. I went to his room and saw him just sitting there, he looked like he felt bad... don't get me wrong i didn't like him but i've never seen him like this.
I looked at him and said "you need to tell me exactly what happened", he told me and i just sat there dumbfounded. I mean i thought it was his fault, damn i felt like a dick now, my rage wasn't over when i thought about why he was sad. He had no right i'm the one who loves her, not him he doesn't get to after what he did. We talked a bit longer and i left, i went to the gym to just hit some spikes to get my mind off the fact that he loves her. She didn't know but i knew i always knew, i just didn't want to admit that he might take her away from me. She still cares about him but maybe there us love there still, i missed the ball and yelled "DAMMIT". Tendou walked in and i just sat on the ground with my head in my arms he sat next to me and said say it, i sighed and says "he still loves her... and she might love him back". Tendou sighs and just sits there and all i do is sit.
~y/n's pov~
I woke up with machines beeping but my whole body was aching, coaches face lit up when i looked at her. She said "how are you my love", i smiled and said "i'm in pain but what happened. As she told me what happened i gasped and said "i-", then my eyes just rolled back again. I just remembered falling into a deep sleep but it wasn't just a regular sleep it was a deep sleep, i felt like i couldn't be brought out. My head was still pounding but this time i saw myself falling like into this hole but i never fell to the bottom i just kept falling. It felt like it was forever and ever... i was just falling but not to the ground. My body hurt bad it was like everything gave up, it hurt to talk it hurt to move and my eyelids were heavy. I had to keep fighting this was my once chance to see where i went with ushijima, to hear what kageyama wanted to tell me. To tell my parents how i really feel, but slowly my body was just failing. What was going on?
~coaches pov~
I sat there for 4 hours waiting for her to wake up the doctors said she was stable but when she got up she would be weak. They told me not to push her too much because the body is still trying to recover, i looked over and she was awake. I was so happy she was just the prettiest thing ever ugh i loved her like my own, she asked me what happened and as i started to explain she gasped. I was confused and she was about to say something but then she started seizing, i pushed the red button and nurses came in. They ushered me out of the room and the nurse said she was having a seizure, i panicked as she said "she will go into a coma for sure but that's good. She won't feel pain she will just think she's sleeping but we do have to ask you some questions, "when is the last time she ate". I screamed "DAMMIT" the nurse asked me to calm down, i said "she used to have an eating disorder around a year ago and recently she's been falling back into her habits". The nurse patted my shoulder and said we would take good care of y/n.
~ushijimas pov~
Today we can go visit her i was excited but also scared, i missed her kisses and i miss holding her. I miss her touch and i miss her playing with my hair and us sleeping together. I missed her... without her i didn't know what to do or how to feel, with her was different but all i wanted to do was be with her. All the teams walked in and sat in the waiting room, y/n's coach came out with mascara running down her face. I walked up to her and she pulled me to the side , she said "y/n is in a coma... she had a seizure last night but she's ok". I sat down and put my hands on my head i looked at coach and said "how did this happen she was fine right?", she looked at me with sad eyes and i knew it was back. All of those smiles were just an act and i knew she was getting smaller but not like that, she haven't been eating for god knows how long.
~everyone's pov~
Coach said that people could go see her but four at a time but only for a little because she needs to rest, everyone was crying and worried and it was just an emotional roller coaster. We knew she was ok but we didn't know if she would pull through, she meant so much to all of us... she cared about all of us like no other. She was what people wanted to be when they got older, she was an icon in the volleyball world. She loved people so much just so people never felt what she felt, well what she used to feel. She was everyone's go to girl when they needed to talk, oh god and nobody knew what was happening. Everyone sat there waiting and waiting... the nurse came out and said that's we could come see her now. The coaches named off list of of who got to see her... the list read ...
1. Niko, Sakura, Mikasa, Tendou
2. Kuro, Kenma, Bokuto, Akaashi
3. Semi, Goshiki, Ohira, Shirabu
4. Oikawa, Iwaizumi, Mad Dog
5. Hinata, tanaka, noya
6.kageyama
7.ushijjma
~to be continued~
