I went to the court fuming and started spiking like crazy and i knew my body wasn't fully ready, but who the hell cares. I thought about the coping i used when i was sad and put my anger into the ball. All i could think about was my parents like. My fucking parents my own parents DAMMIT i screamed as i missed the ball, i wasn't angry anymore i was... numb. Kuro came from the side of me and took the ball, i said "kuro i'm not fucking playing with you give me the ball". He said "i think it's time for a break y/n" i rolled my eyes and said "KURO LET ME BE ALONE". He gave me the ball and walked away at this point i didn't care, I hit another ball but missed it. I sat down and took a breath my breathing was out of control, my head was pounding. I ran to the bathroom and started throwing my guts up, i felt Sakura behind me and she said "y/n go to the dorm it's sunday and your done go chill out".
I kept throwing up and said "leave me alone Sakura", she just stood there, she said "i'm not leaving you here". I cleaned myself up and left the room and went back to the court, the boys were playing a practice so i just sat on the bleachers and watched them. I was watching them play and shiratorizawa was playing a bit off, they called a time out and i pushed the coach out the way. I said "sorry coach but ohira get your shit together your aim is off, and semi what the fuck are you doing your not the only one on the court stop being a ball hog. And Tendou and Ushijima give the second years a fucking chance damn," i patted the coach and said "my bad". I sat back down and everyone was staring at me, i said "the time out is over stop staring at me and go play the right way, we are shiratorizawa". I got an incoming call and got up and took it, it was my parents.
I answered it and said "i have nothing to say to you mom and dad, you don't check up you don't text you don't call. You only text and call for yourself when you feel bad for not checking up so leave me alone. I learned that my family doesn't have to be blood my family is right here, and i do love you guys but what did i do to deserve this. I hung up and i went back in the gym and sat next to Mikasa, i hugged her and apologized. I started crying and i said "when i'm upset my emotions take over so don't let my mood affect you i love you just the same". She was so confused and i was like i love you too sister, she called me sister. I excused myself and went to my room, i cleaned myself myself up and headed back out. It was my time to play in the game. I had been in my room for so long the boys game was over.
I started stretching and Niko said "are you good to play", i said "yeah Niko i'm fine let's just do this". I looked at the clock and it was noon, i had to hurry because lunch was coming up. Sakura let me have the speech and i said "look i know it's a practice game but give it all you got i need to see if my format is right." They agreed and i took off my jacket, revealing my toned body, i told Mikasa to hold my arm while i stretched in a spilt. All the body's werw coming back in from water and just started at me, i gave them a death stare but it didn't phase ushijima. Tendou said "damn for getting out of the hospital she has a very detailed body", everyone agreed. I smiled to the girls and said let's give a show shall we, i pulled up my spandex a bit just for the show.
I knew they were all looking but i knew ushijima wasn't gonna lose his cool that wasn't him, and plus i knew exactly who i belonged to. It was my serve and i got a service ace as usual, i was already getting weaker but who cares i needed to let this anger out. After a couple of rotations and switch outs we got the perfect format it was me, mikasa, niko, sakura, emiko(second year), and cho(first year). I was playing to my ultimate best when i felt dizzy and nodded at mikasa, i had pushed my buttons too much. They switched me out with my backup, she was mikasa's best friend so i loved her, i sat down and coach gave me some water. I told her i'd be right back and i went to grab my pills that the doctor gave me, i took them and i just all of sudden felt awful.
I threw up in the trash can because i couldn't keep the water or the pills down, i tried so Gatorade which was a little successful. I went back we had won the second set, i was so proud of my girls. I couldn't wait to be captain because i would show these girls just how much they mean to me, i was completely burnt out by the end. The other team took a time out and me and the girls were just talking and laughing, i was still pissed but i hid it well. I hadn't talked to ushijima all day so ran over to him really quick and gave him and kiss, he smacked my ass and i gave him a death stare and said "oh your gonna pay for that bub, i swear to god". He said "looking forward to it", i laughed and went back to the girls, all for the boys were so shocked. Tendou was like "how did you get away with that i- just", ushijima laughed and said for god sakes i'm her boyfriend and she knows who
she belongs to". The boys we're just rooting ushijima on for getting a badass girlfriend, their opposing teams new format was a bunch of stuck up third years. Oh now i was pissed.
They figured out the format and was gonna pinpoint mikasa, i wasn't gonna let that happen to my sister. But she had to learn to be tough because i wasn't gonna be there forever, i put the original format up. We got in our positions and like i said they aimed for mikasa and her best friend, i was pissed because they were in the verge of tears. I looked right at the boys team and they had those looks like they were bored, i had to put on a show. Mikasa started crying and i said "mikasa get your shit together they are just some third years, remember what i taught you and you too Azumi (mikasa's bestie). They nodded and cho received it and Azumi set it and mikasa hit that quick attack i taught her. They hit it perfectly and i was so happy, i screamed "hell yeah that's my girls". They laughed and we ended up losing but i didn't care they had so many good quick attacks all i could be was proud.
Today started off horrible but ended really good because i realized my family was here, hell yeah my parents pissed me me off but i couldn't let that show. Bokuto came running up to me and was like "damn y/n you really created a show"! I said "of course you already know typical y/n", i excused myself because i had to call aiko. I called aiko and said "Aiko there's an issue, i can't take the pills anymore food is getting harder and harder to eat. What the hell is wrong? She said "i'll be there tomrrow at 7 to take some tests" i said ok and hung up. Dammit i said as i walked back in the gym, i was walking up to coach when i felt two strong arms wrap around me. He kissed my cheek and said "you did amazing out there and damn that outfit babe, i mean now your asking for it". "am i now" i said , i laughed and kissed him. He smacked my ass as i walked away and i said "if you do that one more time i'm gonna-" he interrupted and said "babe stop the act you know who is in control".
I smiled and Kuro and Kenma were standing there like 🤭, and i was like ignore what i just said. Or as a matter of fact ignore that entire conversation, Kuro got mad and said "MY SISTER ISNT A VIRGIN". Kenma interrupted and said "i just want you to be safe, and kuro look at her for god sakes she has an hourglass of course she's not". Kuro blushed because deep down he knew that you weren't and that ushijima was the one to do it, i hugged them and the coaches yelled lunch time at 1:30.
It was one so i took a quick shower and put on some jeans with fishnet stocking and a black lace crop top. I walked out and went up to coach and she said "i'm sorry i shouldn't have sprung that on you i'm sorry...". I just hugged her tight and said "no i'm sorry i was just out of it but i'm ok now i promise", she was happy and said "now young lady all of your outfits have been a bit scandalous lately, akaashi came up behind coach and said "yeah little sis change". I smiled and said "thank you for you advice akaashi but i finally can wear what i want now that i lost all of that weight"! He let it go because i was excited, he hugged me and said "your growing up too fast y/n", all of sudden Bokuto jumped and said group hug! We all hugged and i said thank you for being my big brothers, i smiled and the coaches said line up it's time to eat!
~to be continued~
